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2011-06-04T17:36:00.002+08:00

A stronger will to continue in my job....

My psychologist once told me that she can see that i really enjoy working with my students...She can see that im genuinely happy being with them..

Yesh.. its true.. I love teaching.... I never had any teaching experience..... Im quite happy with my progress over the year...

I learnt alot....

I worked hard for my students...... i love being with them..i wanted them to learn.. i wanted them to adapt .. i wanted them to be better......

Never in my life i have thought htat i will be teaching children with learning difficulties...... I had always pictured myself as a mainstream teacher teaching in a pri school or sec schoollll....

Being in this line offers me the kind of satisfaction that i can never find in any other jobs....

I went for a talk at KKH... i felt even more inspired to work in this line.. Will do my best in my adv diploma..

Out of the 35k births in singapore, there is about 1.8k births of babies who hve learning difficulties.... This is the statistics...Numbers are growing..

I have never been a parent.... I am also not a parent of a special child.....Sometimes talking to parents who are still in denial can be heart-breaking as well... Of course, im composed when listening to them...Looking at their tears swelling up in their eyes..... Well.. Having a special child can be so overwhelming...

The entire world changes once the child is labelled atypical... They are a bunch of kids that needed the extra help...Most oftenly, the microsystem of the child affects its learning.......Special education is an expensive thing..

Being in this job gives me another purpose in my life... I just want to help them... im drawing very low pay right now.... but receiving the thanks from the parents whom i helped just give me the drive to move on....

This month, two of my dear students will leave me.. One is gone... I never expected myself to cry when i gave me a hug before he left my classroom... I gave him a last kiss and wished him all the best as he walked out of my centre....

The next will leave at the end of the month....

Im kinda worried for them in some ways.... thinking of what lies ahead of them....... We spent great times together..... And i know.. they wont remember me after some time...

2011-05-22T11:27:00.002+08:00

Happy memories.... Sad memories.... Whether or not the memory is happy, sad, angry or disappointing....... they all hurt as much.........

I can only remind myself that he was the one who chose to give up...

The only reality to me is those words that he said to me on the break up.... Those words that will always remain in my heart..... He is very firm on the break-up....

I can only remind myself that everything has ended....

We faced the same problems that any couple will eventually face in their lives...

We both lost the confidence.. lost the trust.. lost our way.... We just do not know how to carry on...

I could have went to him and beg him back.... But no.. I didnt.... I cant gurantee anything...

People said he still has feelings....

My 5 senses tell me that it is not true at all.

Even if it is true...... we no longer have the strong feelings that can help us to overcome all our differences and problems........

I was dependent on him. I forgot how to fix my computer.

I was dependent on him. I didnt know how to trim noco's nails and flight feathers...

I was dependent on him. When i was really sick, he was the one who nurse me back to my health. I cld even hear his voice calling me when i felt really sick and helpless...

For all i know... i can only pick myself up and learn to live without him...

I learnt how to trim noco's nails independently..

I learnt how to set up a computer...

I learnt that i will eventually be left alone in future... Dad and mum wont be with me forever...i have to learn to look after myself...

怕安靜 (SILENCE PHOBIA)
I went to watch a movie alone.
I end up searching for you in the cinema.
People come and go.
I miss the times being yelled at when i was late.
I received an sms. But it is not from you.
Reading the sms only left me even more disappointed.
You can leave. But why leave behind so many dramas that we never get to watch.

I think i really fear silence. Without squabbling with you, Im not happy.
Once im home, i turn on the radio to drown out all of the silence.
Maybe in this way, i might be able to bear with the pain.

I think i really fear silence. I bathe with my headphones on.
Once the sounds of my video games stop, i fear i will recall everything again.
The one who nags me..The one who loves me.. I never cherished.

Your idol just released an album.
His songs are still as wonderful. But its still heartbreaking for me.
Each line in the song lyrics reminds me to give up.

I think i really fear silence. Without squabbling with you, Im not happy.
Once im home, i turn on the radio to drown out all of the silence.
Maybe in this way, i might be able to bear with the pain.

I think i really fear silence. I bathe with my headphones on.
Once the sounds of my video games stop, i fear i will recall everything again.
The one who nags me..The one who loves me.. I never cherished.

Maybe i should leave my alarm clock ringing.. Maybe i can wake up this way.
I dont feel like giving up. But love cant solely depend on determination.
Even if i manage to persuade you to stay by my side, i fear that you will only be more upset.

Loving someone doesnt mean that we have to be with that person forever.
I really fear the silence.
I dont feel like going out.
But i force myself out.
I roamed around the city. Went into the ktv. Sang your favourite song.
But the person singing the song with me is no longer you.

I realised that i really fear the silence. I fear that i can never hear you calling me anymore.
I sang my heart out in the kitchen. Listen to music on my sofa
Then i realised how much i loved you.
But you are no longer around with me...

2011-05-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

羅志祥 Luo Zhi Xiang (小猪) – 怕安静 pa an jing (pinyin)

我又帮自己订了场电影
wǒ yòu bāng zì jǐ dìng le chǎng diàn yǐng
结果坐在广场找你背影
jié guǒ zuò zài guáng chǎng zhǎo nǐ bèi yǐng
人来了又去我好怀念迟到有人会发脾气
rén lái le yòu qù wǒ hǎo huái niàn chí dào yǒu rén huì fā pí qi
手机有收讯简讯不是你
shǒu jī yǒu shōu xùn jiǎn xùn bú shì nǐ
打开了更让人失望到底
dǎ kāi le gèng ràng rén shī wàng dào dǐ
你走就走吧干麻留下每天没看完的韩剧
nǐ zǒu jiù zǒu ba gān má liú xià měi tiān méi kàn wán de hán jù

我想我真的怕安静少了你吵我不开心
wǒ xiǎng wǒ zhēn de pà ān jìng shǎo le nǐ chǎo wǒ bù kāi xīn
回家第一个开机掩盖所有的安静
huí jiā dì yí gè kāi jī yǎn gài suó yǒu de ān jìng
说不定我能够撑过去
shuō bú dìng wǒ néng gòu chēng guò qù
我想我真的怕安静连洗澡都要戴耳机
wǒ xiǎng wǒ zhēn de pà ān jìng lián xí zǎo dōu yào dài ěr jī
打电动声东击西一停我又怕想起
dǎ diàn dòng shēng dōng jī xī yì tíng wǒ yòu pà xiǎng qǐ
念我和爱我的人我没珍惜
niàn wǒ hé ài wǒ de rén wǒ méi zhēn xī
你爱的歌手又出了专辑
nǐ ài de gē shǒu yòu chū le zhuān jí
一样好听可是特别痛心
yí yàng hǎo tīng kě shì tè bié tòng xīn

歌词每一句根本办不到还硬劝我要放弃
gē cí měi yí jù gēn běn bàn bú dào hái yìng quàn wǒ yào fàng qì
我想我真的怕安静少了你吵我不开心
wǒ xiǎng wǒ zhēn de pà ān jìng shǎo le nǐ chǎo wǒ bù kāi xīn
回家第一个开机掩盖所有的安静
huí jiā dì yí gè kāi jī yǎn gài suó yǒu de ān jìng
说不定我能够撑过去
shuō bú dìng wǒ néng gòu chēng guò qù
我想我真的怕安静连洗澡都要戴耳机
wǒ xiǎng wǒ zhēn de pà ān jìng lián xí zǎo dōu yào dài ěr jī
打电动声东击西一停我又怕想起
dǎ diàn dòng shēng dōng jī xī yì tíng wǒ yòu pà xiǎng qǐ

念我和爱我的人我没珍惜
niàn wǒ hé ài wǒ de rén wǒ méi zhēn xī
把闹钟设不停或许我会清醒
bǎ nào zhōng shè bù tíng huò xǔ wǒ huì qīng xǐng
我想等下去可惜爱不能靠毅力
wǒ xiǎng děng xià qu kě xī ài bù néng kào yì lì
要是我挽回你你一定更伤心
yào shì wǒ wǎn huí nǐ nǐ yí dìng gèng shāng xīn
爱一个人不一定要永远在一起
ài yí gè rén bù yí dìng yào yóng yuǎn zài yì qǐ
真的怕安静不想去也硬要出去
zhēn de pà ān jìng bù xiǎng qù yě yìng yào chū qu
逛闹区到 KTV 点你必点的歌曲
guàng nào qū dào KTV diǎn nǐ bì diǎn de gē qǔ
怎麽合唱的人不是你
zěn me hé chàng de rén bú shì nǐ

原来我这麽怕安静是怕再也听不到你
yuán lái wǒ zhè me pà ān jìng shì pà zài yě tīng bú dào nǐ
在厨房大声唱歌在沙发硬跟我挤
zài chú fáng dà shēng chàng gē zài shā fā yìng gēn wǒ jǐ
让我终於晓得我有多爱你
ràng wǒ zhōng yū xiǎo dé wǒ yǒu duō ài nǐ
你已不在这里
nǐ yǐ bú zài zhè lǐ

2011-05-15T21:31:00.001+08:00

Im picking up the pieces of my memories with him... bit by bit... i kept away the pictures we took.....

it appears to me that he seems to be moving on.....i shd too.

2011-05-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

i can only be stronger.. not weaker.... the pain will go away.....

2011-05-08T00:13:00.003+08:00

Its past 12.. im dead tired... but excited over the GE elections.

I didnt get to vote.. but still its exciting...

I cut my hair short today... u can see it in my fb... well...Been having bad hair loss... finally decided to cut my hair short to salvage the problem.

I havent been resting well.. lack of sleep. work is piling. School work is piling...

Still moving on in my life....

there are times when thoughts of him will appear in my mind...Its upsetting especially when you are too used to having someone around you and then he is gone.....

Sometimes im really sad... Sometimes im ok..Sometimes im really happy..sometimes im really down...

Its a natural process of grieving.. I have been reading this book..Not sure how well this book works.. but at least i can give it a try.. theres really no harm trying...

The only reality to me now is that he gave up everything.

2011-05-02T18:13:00.002+08:00

Within a short span of a week... too many things happened. Be it at work or at personal aspects.

Talked to a few of my close friends. Sorry of the midnight downpour.. I was just too lost to deal with that stupid problem. Thankfully, things cn be resolved.

It seems to be a consistency of me failing sick over the wkend. Perhaps im over-worked. When i was told by my doctor that i will have to be on long term medication for my allergy and that there is no cure for this, i felt nothing.

I have a history of allergic rhinitisis. My nose will hurt. It will bleed. Then come all the nonsense of runny nose, block nose and itchy throat. The exact cause of this is still unknown. Perhaps dust mites?

Now.. whether or not i show any symptom, i have to regularly apply the nasal spray...

2011-04-11T15:12:00.002+08:00

He left me. On 1st of april 2011, he let go of me.

He doesnt love me anymore.

I will move on too.

丁噹-亲人

別打開禮物的緞帶

最初充滿期待最後都腐敗

別打開午夜的電臺

別讓情歌反覆再愚弄

而愛並沒有教給我生存

只教我交易虛榮給天真

可是愛讓我們變成陌生人

卻變不了更高尚的靈魂

不要吻我只要抱著我

不要愛我做我的親人

把手借我一天一分鐘

做我最親密的親人

不是誰的情人誰的某某某

就算我全身濕透透

我也不再被誰牽著鼻子走

如果我還握住拳頭

可能我怕我的夢飛走

而愛並不如你想的萬能

不能讓我們不再戰爭

可是愛連慈悲也沒多慈悲

誰愛越深越容易被犧牲

不要吻我只要抱著我

不要愛我做我的親人

把手借我一天一分鐘

讓我還敢做我的夢

做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄

[Translated Lyrics]

giving up opening the presents’ ribbon
that used to make me forward to
giving up the midnight’s radio
never give in yourself to the love songs,again and again,foolishly

because love, has never taught me how to survive
but as a deal of my vanity to the naive
and love has made us a stranger
and not becoming a noble soul within us

i just need your hug,not your kiss
i just need you to be my dearest,not loving me
do lend me your hand,one minute a day
be my dearest
and not becoming my lover or someone’s

even if i have soaked in the rain
i will never going to allow anyone to lead me by the nose
and if i am still clenching my fist
i might afraid my dreams will fly away

and love,is not everything
it can not stop us from war
and love,it will only be a pity
for those that are deeply in love and being sacrifised

i just need your hug,not your kiss
i just need you to be my dearest,not loving me
do lend me your hand,one minute a day
so that i can dream
as my hero with a smile

2011-02-27T10:54:00.002+08:00

Hello blog.

i realised that i visit you lesser. i realised my friends rarely update their blogs too. I also realised that i get updates from my friends off the facebook these days as well.

dear blog, are you gona be taken over by facebook soon?

i guess maybe not....

cos once in while.. we do have many inner thoughts that we need an outlet to share...

dear blog,
i have been sick. literally sick. just after cny, i was down with stomach flu that took me 2 wks to recover. once after recovering, im down with flu nearly 3-4 days of full recvery..

dear blog,
what have i done this time to get hte flu? lolx. it probably was expected. ive been taking care of sick children. my parents been having flu. my sis n family is down with flu. her kids.. one down with hfmd.....

no wonder im sick.

dear blog,
will i get my adv diploma and pay it on my own?

dear blog.. i feel so drowsy after my medication. but watching yu le bai made me giggle abit..

dear blog, can i go to bed now?

2011-02-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hi blog. im back again.
Hows the lunar new year?
I had mine.
Pretty much the same as previous years.

The usual steamboat lunch in the eve.
then dinner at the uncle's place.
the first day of chinese new year was spent shuttling between my uncle's place and my mum's bro condo.

The second day was spent having lunch with mum's friends and my sister popped by.
Had dinner at uncle big's place.

Today, i spent the first half of the day at home. then traveled to serangoon north. Both of us decided to go kite flying.
We actually bought two kites some time back from queensway shopping centre. We bought a doraemon kite and a huge goldfish kite.

We happily went to marina barrage once again to do some kite flying. Its a cloudy and windy day today.

We happily un-wrapped doraemon and started fixing it.

And then a huge gust of wind came. Uncle big broke my doraemon kite's rod. ZZzzz... Doraemon kite decided to resign even before it started flying.

I wasnt really upset as we still had another kite to play with. Then we happily un-wrap our goldfish kite and let it fly up high into the sky.

Isnt it pretty??

Its so fun.....
We invested quite alot in our kites. Bought better strings and reels for our kites. We were hoping for the best kite experience. However, everything was short-lived. Didnt have much luck in kites. =X=X=X=X

Goldfish kite's rod broke too near the end of the day. Zzzz...How sad can this be.... but at least i had a chance to fly it.

Now its time for us to source for places to repair our kites. What that was broken were the rods. As long as we fix the rods, doraemon n goldfish can fly again. I decided to get another kite as spare. ZZzzzz...

Its better to get a spare kite..=x And theres a possibility of losing your kite. So if you have a spare, u wont feel too much frustration when one of your kites decides to break free.

Im not a kite flying professional..But every failed kite experience is a learning curve. LOLX...One day we will be able to fly kites without losing any kites. =x=x=x

U can always jio me for kite flying these days after i repair doraemon n goldfish.

My idol's book finally arrived before the lunar new year. Been reading it every night before i go to bed. Just wana finish it up ASAP. Since i already bought it and i have the time, i would wish to finish it up quickly.

In future, if i really had to study, i wont even have a chance to read anything. My work load is getting heavier each passing day as well. All the more i shd cherish my free time. But no matter how time pressed, i would always steal time to watch my anime bleach and yu le bai ..

Heres my idol in the yu le bai CNY edition. LOLX. he wore a huge suit and dressed like an ah pek. lolx.

2011-01-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

Life just gets ever tougher.

Life is never easy to start with. I guess everyone else would just agree with it.

Many of times, ive asked myself whether this is the career i would wish to do.

Well, Ive always wanted to be a teacher.

And yes i am now one..

A lot of times... i guess its the passion that made me last till this day...

I managed to survive days without a leader in the centre.

I managed to survive the fate of being transferred from class to class and setting up from class to class.

I managed to survive the long and tiring meetings...

And guess what? There is just more to come...

I really dread this. But theres nthing i can do. I have also accepted that this will be the fate though deep inside i wish that things could be even better.

In this coming week, i will face with yet another uphill challenge.

A partner who has worked with me for all these months is leaving. Leaving behind a pile of students and also some challenging goals.

I will lead a class on my own. The workload i currently have will multiple by 2. its nothing to get excited about. Im already busy. This will only make me even busier.

Im perplexed over being bonded. I know very well that the chances of being bond will be just as high as mount everest. Yet i secretly hope that i will never be bonded as i really do not know how much longer i can tolerate if things remain as they are.

Sometimes after looking at others, i look at myself and thought about how worth while is this gona be.

Im doing charity everyday. I could have been paid better if i looked for other jobs...

And then again.. im someone who is neither here nor there.

I only possess experience and absolutely nothing related to this field. No cert. No diploma. No degree.

Leaving isnt a solution. I will end up in the same state as well.

Its already 11.30pm saturday. soon sunday is here. and im already suffering the monday blues.

i used to not bring work home. but now. bringing work home is a normal thing already. I reach home later n later.

Wishing for things to get better is never gona work out for me.

I can only open my mouth wide and swallow whatever thats right in front of me and move on with my life.

Im tired. But i can only move forward step by step even if ive to drag myself.

2011-01-09T22:50:00.003+08:00

Back to blog..

Spent the saturday evening at Marina Barrage. Had snack at xin wang located at anchor point earlier before heading to Marina Barrage.

Heres my lil princess. She looks sad,huh? Well, she wasnt feeling really well. Probably it was too windy on saturday.

Our kite flying experience was rather good this time round. It was really really windy. Our kites went up into the sky within seconds.
Unfortunately... Travis's smiley face kite disappeared within minutes into the sky due to poor fastening to the kite to our string and the big wind.

I learnt my lesson. So i bought kite connectors (thin metal hooks to secure your kite and your string). I bought another 2 kites for travis n trishelle. Total damage was 40bucks. Wah sehx. Ex sia.

Heres travis's lion kite.

Heres trishelle's sotong kite. This kite actually flew off when our string snapped. Lucky for us. Uncle big managed to get it back. Heres our sotong in the sky.

I enjoyed myself alot at marina barrage. At least our kites took off quite well due to the nice weather.
I decided to invest in better strings and kite the next time round.

Ah girl moved into her new cage on saturday. She is really happy to have a new cage. Heres the happy lovie in the new cage.

Sunday was spent shopping. We went back to goodwill to get a cage for noco. His cage looks rather old as well. So we got a new one for him. He doesnt maintain his cage as well as ah girl. We got new toys as well.

Then we headed off to queensway to buy kites. The kite seller ends her bazaar stall this month end. We got 2 kites at pretty good prices. We also bought better nylon strings for the kites so our kites wont go missing again.

I realised we got cheated at marina barrage kite stall. The kites here are so much cheaper. But maybe becos the prices at queensway are brought down due to the ending of bazaar stall.

Shall look forward to the next kite flying day. If you are interested, feel free to jio me and uncle big. Be prepared to spend about 30-40 bucks thought. A good kite cost 10-20 bucks. A good string cost 12-30 bucks. lolx.

At least its another activity couples can do.

2011-01-01T13:22:00.002+08:00

Dusting off the huge pile of dirt and cob webs from my blog...

hahaha.. its only after bing told me about my long desserted blog.. if not i wont even come back here... almost forgot my logins too.. =X=X

Its the start of the new year... 2011..

Anyways.. lets do some re-cap of what ive done in the past 4 months..

celebrated travis bday.. then sis bday.. then dad's bday.. finally uncle big's bday.. heres him with his two good friends... unfortunately... his candles got blown by travis before he can do anything..

Currently glued to this game called "Cut the Rope".

Went for my first ever piano recital.. Jaq was performing in there. =) Finally met up with my SIM girls after soooo many months.. We almost couldnt meet up with each other as our timings kept clashing.. Heres us in the hall.. Theres a damn ex piano behind us... 250k.. =x
Got my present from uncle big... a nice sleek netbook from dell.. though its a lil laggy at times.. still nice to use..smirks.. eheh

Met up grace after so long... hahaha...... i think it was in nov..when she dropped by to sg...
Of course... i met up with huitian .. the one and only pri school fren left. =x=x=x hahahahahha.... i met up with her on the 26th dec.. had buffet dinner at kuru kuru then a movie of Yogi bear..

Spent xmas with my family n sis family with jeff family on the 25 dec..had the m ini pot luck party....

Just last night.. had a wonderful day with my lil two niece n nephew.. Had a mushroom dinner at lao bei jing in tiong bahru plaza... basically almost every dish had mushrooms.. and its the same kind of mushroom... Perhaps we ordered the wrong dishes.. =x=x==x A quick look at other dishes on other tables dont have much mushrooms...

Countdown at the pinnacles 50th level..enjoyed the breeze n fireworks...

aaa.. thats the end of my 2010....

lets see wats ahead in 2011

2010-09-29T00:10:00.003+08:00

the last blog post was in aug... OMG... how time flies..

its already near the end of september...

lotsa things happened over the near two months..

went to the zoo...

went to hollywood after hours...

went out with my girls...

attended a birthday party...

celebrated teachers day with my kids...

so so many things...

well.. im still the same me......

nothings much has changed except my growing waist line.....

and.. my desire to strike rich..

irony of life...i kept wanting to strike toto.. but i never bought any toto tickets at all...argh.....

work life still the same..

love life still the same...

nothing much changed...

im still that xiao zhu fan.... i still watch my animes and dramas as usual... everything is as per normal...

im quite routined in some ways.... rigid in some ways...

ive certain habits that i really must fulfill before i can move on to the next activity..

every morning, without fail, i will get on to facebook via my handphone.. just to take a look at my friends updates...

without fail, every night , i will get on to facebook once more before i hit the sack...

strange huh?

sometimes i know that theres nothign much to look at... but still.. i will get on to facebook just to read other pple's comments or wat event is going on or basically look at status updates....

its purely habit and some curiosity on wat my friends are doing....

ever since i entered work force and a fixed schedule of 8.30-5.30pm... i hardly speak to my friends.. i dont get the luxury of using the MSN during work hours.. when im home... my friends are ont he way home.. some in classes... timing just doesnt match at all...

sigh...

anyway... im waiting for my hair to dry up.... so i shall blabber more into this blog.... lolx.. compensate my near 2 months of absence of no blogging....

sometimes i wonder why my kids are deemed so un-welcomed in normal schools.. yesh they are exceptionally different.... but why.... i can only conclude that the society may not be ready for them....

please dont shut them out because they are autistic...

many of my friends told me that i have an interesting job.. yesh..its both interesting and challenging.... and its definitely not an easy job... pple would say that i have huge amount of patience as im handling such children...

but no.. its not really the patience part that counts..... it only stands a mere percentage.. i would say its more of passion and problem solving.... every day meets a different challenge.. always on the spot to think of wat to do next.....

im often trapped in such thoughts.. doing wat i like versus money factor.....

pple find my job interesting.. they see that i enjoy my time at work... i get my laughs... i dont stay put at a desk typing away or answer endless phone calls regarding trouble shooting....

but once u know of the pay and welfare and work conditions u have to face.. u wont think that its a dream job...

argh.. when can i earn reasonably and enjoy my work.. sighxxx...

not that i hate my current job...

but when i think of money.. it can be just soo disheartening at times...

im drawing a diploma salary....

my peers are earning much much much more... argh...

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

grrr.. haix..

2010-08-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

Its the national day weekend now.. On this coming monday, Singapore will be 45 years old already....
When i was a kid, i truly love national day celebrations.. Not only the school gives us only half days.. we get to "celebrate" without doing any concrete work.. everyone will be on holiday mood...we get those tiny singapore flags..we wave it high...we wave it low..everyone is hyped up.. we finish off the half day with some performances and sing a long...

As i grow older..national day doesnt seem to signify much except its another public holiday... Gone were the celebrations.. Gone were the days we swing our national mini flag around.. i remember that i used to buy this mini singapore flag that comes with chocolate sweets inside the tube holding the flag.... Im not very patriotic to be exact.. =X not that i dont love singapore... Apart from the influx of foreigners, transport squeeze, transport hikes and this and that..im actually quite grateful that i live in a safe country...

Many years after i left school...i finally celebrated national day .. this time..its with my students.. i kinda enjoyed it... for full 3 hours..its nothing but playing and food.... we sung the national day songs..waved our flags... feast on our goodies... Its been many donkey years since i last sang a national day song.. so friday was quite memorable...

speaking of school.. i worked 11.5 days straight.. yeaps... since two weeks ago.. i was bz with my school.. then i had to work over the wkend..i nearly died.. i was suffering from some allergy (according to the doc).. chiong a damn busy saturday...survived a damn boring dinner on a sunday.. i totally died out..i slept for 12 hours on a friday night... hahaha...

The only small bonus that i have during that 11.5 days work week was the parrots gathering that i went to on a sunday afternoon... played with other birds... got bitten by my un-grateful noco...till now the wound hasnt healed... got bitten by a lory.. aww... not a very smooth week huh?? i think i suffer more than sweetness...

i went to the doctor twice for two different illness... one healed..another came.. i think its purely over-exhaustion bahx.... i was really given any MCs as its not that vicious flu...and anyways... its near 12am.. so i guess its time to turn in....

before i go...i shall showcase my photo taken last sunday... hahah...aiya..i think u oso saw it in my fb liao lahx...

2010-07-19T21:32:00.001+08:00

its a monday...

2010-07-04T12:14:00.002+08:00

Im so tired.. yawns.... lazy sunday afternoon....

I just realised its been a long itme since i spoken to alaska.. hmmx... bzbzbz.. the last wk was sooooooooo BUSY... i came home n drop dead..

i was brain dead after a day of parents meeting session... knocked out hte moment i reached home.. i havent restored my energy yet..and i had a long day on a wednesday... work plus night workshop... i came home extremely tired...

on thursday..i received my new kid... didnt had much rest...thank goodness..my mum boiled some tonic soup.. if not i wont have lasted till now....

i wanted to watch some youtube clips..but i dont understand why the clips just load halfway and the connection broke.. argh..ive sooo many yu le bai episodes to catch up on... zzz.....

aaa... random talking now... dont really make much sense horx....

maybe im hungry..tats why.. waiting for hte bf to come..go have lunch... watching toy story 3 laters at gwc.. oh my... i didnt even watch toy story 2 and 1. =X

im sooo looking forward to the nxt wkend..cos i dont like wkdays.....

heres some pic to share.....

heres noco.. he is turning 1 this sunday..

We celebrated my mum's bday about 2 wks back.....

2010-06-27T21:33:00.002+08:00

Its monday blues.. so my words are blue... ok.. technically its not monday yet... but i have been having monday blues since last friday... =_="

amazingly... i had a half day on friday and i still can feel blue...

its a beginning of a new sem... taking new kids..... parents meeting conference is on the second day of school.. then a short course at ARC...

on top of all these..... there are things that arent ready.... i paid for some toys and teaching materials with my own money... =_=" bascially.. not enough things.... if u wanna donate things like kids tricycle or puzzles.. let me know ya?

Major dilemma...u see har..

POint Alpha: im dying to jump ship.... but im lack of experience... can only hold out till i earn some brownie points from experience...

Point Beta: been wanting to go for courses... but alot telling me tat its better for the coy to sponsor...the thing is.. i dont wanna be bonded by this coy... so the next best thing is to jump ship n get new coy to sponsor.. so we go back to point alpha..

so bottomline... ive to rot till i have enough experience then jump ship.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i cant take it..

2010-06-24T21:10:00.002+08:00

I was kinda emo... but a url link from bing brightened up my day..

2010-06-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

Time to blog againx...

heres some pics taken at marine barrage...

we were there like 2 wks ago?? hahahah.. the day when our kites refused to fly.. we took two kites over.. unfortunately..we didnt get much of kite flying..... we melted in the hot weather.. then we had fun at the water play area....

we had dinner at hte sze chuan restaurant at UOB building... all the way up to the 60th storey.... suffer the pressure int he ear.. waited like hell for the food.... traditional chinese food..wait long long for food... i think tats my first and last time there.. =_="""

Im still surviving in the new centre... but making plans to leave as well..i just received my appraisal form..after completion and submission to my superiors.. i shall wait for my confirmation... frankly speaking..im quite tensed up... hai..dont know wats the fate when school reopens...

2010-06-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

Back to blog....

Another weekend of fun...

Sat i went to my friend xinwen's wedding lunch..Aaa...another one married... Pleasant wedding lunch at conrad... had a fast catch up with my poly friends. i think next is quan wei's. Will post the pics soon....
Then i had dinner with my family...simple home cooked affair.. then got stuck with travis again.. but its ok.

On sun.. i worked at the carnival.. Hot and rainy day.. doesnt make sense rigt? Its a rainy day..yet WARM n HUMID! Im so lucky my family came to support me... my niece n nephew had fun running mad around the prayer hall....

Monday met up with my girls..FINALLY HUDA CAME!!!!! aaa..she like MIA for hte longest time in life... We met for lunch at FISH somerset 313..Watched the movie called the Killers. So so movie... only worth watching becos u have ashton to drool over..then again..the tot that he is with demi moore... a woman 10-18 yrs older than him.. its a turn off...

we had tea at toast box.. waited for weixiong at mac..quick catch up..then i dragged myself home.. enjoy the collage below.. u can view the pics in my FB account...dont have my FB account? too bad lor. =X

Alrights.... and this wk is my last wk at simei.. new wk at punggol.. i teared on my way home... im sooo gona miss the simei staff.... its sooo homely over there.... the supervisor treats us like her children.. the staff there are caring.... now in punggol.... ive been posted to my respective class.. initially we had the choice to choose as of wat someboday say la..end up somebody ownself post us to classes...

im disappointed with the arrangement... i tot i be with ms Q. but NOPE. Someboday arrangement gona cost more pple wanna quit... SIGHX...

2010-05-28T10:15:00.002+08:00

Think my blog is collecting dust. i dont update it very much often. aa.. boring life mahx... wat to do??

This upcoming week ... i will be moving over to punggol to face another uncertainty. I have to kiss ansel good bye.. Boy.. i love this child... ansel ansel ansel... A sweet natured boy who is just so innocent and cute.. shah n alaska heard of stories of how i teased him.. =X aww.. miss teaching him...

The last wkend for me was a blast. I had soo much excitments in two days. I suppose u already saw the pictures in my FB already. First it was the concert. Then the private party.... Completed a wish list in my dreams wish list..

Was really happy to see him real life.... Even though he doesnt have the world's best singing voice who can make birds sing and flowers bloom..Even though he is not the world's best actor who can get the Oscars..... He is still my idol...

For the past couple of years.. its his funny jokes tat crack me up on tired days... His comical way of hosting got me entertained..its his romantic comedy tat got me enchanted.. hmm.. im not those crazy teenage fans that will bounce and scream at hte sight of him... Aa.. now this reminds me of something...

Aaa.. my dear alaska.. i grown out of A1 and walked into the Show luo era. X= i remember very clearly.. how me n alaska sneaked into the hotel to look for A1...and how we jump around in excitement when we got to call christian a1 from the wisma mrt public phone.. How we spent hours Q-ing outside HMV and plaza sing just to get our autographs signed...And how many autographed CDs we have?? at least 2 i think... How we spent nights dialing the power 98 hotline to win the a1 thingys......

I think these are things i wont do for my small pig xiao zhu.. =X im that kind of fan who will just sit quietly in a corner.. clapping for him and cheering him on from the heart.. =X the so called "Shu Nu" type of fan tat he mentioned in the concert. I think age oso another factor... u cant expect karen ah yi to lug her bag and camera ..running around like a mad woman.... bing made me luff when she commented on my auntie plastic bag filled with snacks on sunday....

Me n bing enjoyed ourselves very much.. heres us at the event.. and a pic of me and xiaozhu poster.. =X

2010-05-24T20:38:00.002+08:00

My dream came true.....

i saw him ...

if i were to die now.. i can leave in peace. =X

2010-05-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

bASically... i think my blog is dead.. hahahahah... i havent been updating for the longest time...... I oso dont know wat to update about too...

Im still very much alive..... Moving over to punggol soon.... argh.. more stress to come... You might think my job is easy... Just do lesson plans... My classes end at 4pm and i knock off at 5.30pm.. The things that i teach are easy oso.. the ABCs and 123s....

Yeah..everything sounds easy.... but the word easy doesnt really fit anything of my job...

lesson plans are easy to set.... There are times...its hard to execute...Even before u start the lesson, the things u prepared like ur worksheet/ pencil/ puzzle/ shape sorter might have already hit the class room floor or being thrown to another end of the classroom.. Sometimes u barely make it pass snack time...

Sometimes tat kid comes in throwing tantrums and melting down and u spend the next 2 hours trying to pacify, figure out wat triggered the melt down and calm the kid down... While trying to pacify the child, u are also subjected to unforeseen kicks, punches and bites from tat kid.. oh my...

Most of the time, the speed of your child completing the task and absorbing the information fully depends on the mood of the child... Child no mood.. Learn almost zero. Child got mood... then can absorb.. but the amt child absorb oso subjected to child's own capability..

Then u spend time trying to crack ur brains on teaching the concept of the number 1 to the child.. Then u crack ur brains trying to figure out how to make tat boy pee standing...

Try having 4 in ur class...2 melts down.. 1 just pooed in the diapers... u will really wish u can split into 3 and attend to everyone...

YeaPX.... and now..... ive to face work political situations........ suffer the shortage of toilets...... ARGH... damn sian

2010-04-12T17:13:00.004+08:00

I finally got the pictures from the previous mopa outings.. We have a new member who joined us during the outing.. its cherri and bentley the electus...

Here is noco.. looking curious as usual.. Noco is turning to orangey yellow all over his body... he really changed alot in terms of looks....

Heres tweety... looking pretty

Since the pavement is quite empty, we decided to let our birds go for a walk.. lolx.. its really cute..all of them walking up and down on their foot. Terry (white budgie) and teri (peach face lovie) are quite terrible.. they constantly disturb birds bigger than them.. hahaha.... keep chasing their friends around the pavement.

Heres terry the peach face..
Heres bentley the electus parrot

Baby the masked lovie

More pictures of them roaming on the floor...

Yeaps.. tats all...

I spent a great wkend celebrating my bday.. On saturday, i celebrated my bday at changi airport.. we had crystal jade for dinner.. got ang baos from my family members..we got ice cream and cake for supper.. =) shall blog about my bday when i transfered my pics over to the desktop..

im recovering from flu right now..seems like the h1n1 jab no longer effective... or maybe im only protected from h1n1.. hmm..

2010-04-04T10:59:00.002+08:00

I wonder if any more readers still read my humble blog...

Ive been doing quite fine for now..... Im doing a teacher's work already.. Doing up lesson plans..DDesigning Individual goals for kids...

My long wkend is quite well spent..... I spent the entire friday afternoon with the MOPA group. We brought noco for another outing.. Its quite fun... We met a new friend too. She is cherri and her Electus Parrot is called Bentley.

Pictures will come later... Uncle big still editing them..... Shall blog about the outing soon...

Yesterday, we went to bugis street to pray.. It was guan yin dan. Then we went over to serangoon north to get noco's food. I really love serangoon north's good will bird shop.. They always hve rare parrots on display. Please note..its only for display.. ahahahha... Those gorgeous birds that can easily cost you tens of thousands of dollars...

Dont even try to think of stealing any one of those birds.. they all come with tags and microchip... Besides..they all have their own distinctive calls that you can even hear a few blocks away... So its quite easy to get caught when u ever steal one...

They have a very rare black palm cockatoo in their shop. Black Palm cockatoos are near extinction. They are rarely seen in habitats. However, there have been breeders around the world trying very hard to breed these cockatoos. Their breeding habits and lost of natural habitats are perhaps the reason why they are depleting bahx. How to survive when u only produce one egg every 2 years huh?

Tat pretty black palm cockatoo has been there for a month or so... Yesterday, the shop owner actually took it out to show it to a potential buyer. Tat parrot is amazingly tame.. I got to stroke ti.. im sooo happpy.. its feathers soo sooo soft...

The pic below is a pic of a black palm cockatoo.. very beautiful.. You dont even see it at jurong bird park...

In the evening we headed off to a bday party and we had dinner at tbp.. i wonder wat we be doing today..

2010-03-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

Isnt it strange? even tho we know that fairy tales in life do not exist, we still enjoy watching them??? How many romantic dramas, movies or animes have touched your heart?? Just do a rough count... There should be at least one...

pERHAps a little person in us still hope that we will have such sweet endings in life... And im exactly tat person.. I still enjoy watching those romantic comedies like Miss No Good, Kobato, Special A and blah blah blah......I personally watched the last two episode of Kobato TWICE.. hahahahahha...Heres a pic of kobato and fujimoto.... Aww......so sweet story....
My life is getting interestingly tiring and challenging... Ive been assigned to two kids.. If nothing goes wrong, we shall be going to punggol and i be in their teacher... Technically.. im on my own already...and im not close to this two lil pple.....

I nearly died today.. The boy whom i least accepted to throw tantrums actually kick up a big fuss...

We have moved out of the original classrooms into a mini classroom meant for punggol kids.. .Basically my boy cldnt adapt to the change.. To add on to my misery, he wetted himself and threw a huge commotion.. I understand he is upset abt wetting himself.... But he just screams..cries... wails on the floor.. I totally dumb founded.... He didnt wanna change out his soiled clothings.. 3 teachers had to change him... Anyway its basically just more screams and cries and struggles...

Im sooo tired... Basically........ once we settle down in punggol.. we will once again switch classes based on high functioning.. low functioning and the medium one... i seriously hope i kana either high or medium functioning.. if i kana low functioning.. i will seriously think of whether i shld end this career le...

Once kana low functioning.. its forever low functioning liaoxx...OMG..... i dont really know how to handle lor.... so i better pray.... if kana such class.. i no nd to have kids le...... Haix... i seriously pray hard hard.....

2010-03-20T21:52:00.005+08:00

back for bloggy business... lolx

I took half day leave on tuesday to spend time with my dear girls from sim.. I met up with Bing n jaq for lunch and tea... I miss them mahx.. so just take leave.. Ive been saying this for sooo many times.. Its really a luxury to meet up with your friends for a meal .. especially after you work... Once u enter working society, you tend to lead your own life style... everyone seem to drift also..

Unfortunately.. huda didnt join us.. We do hope she will join us another time tat we meet.. i met the girls in ps... jaq suggested us to try out a restaurant that sells angels.. She saw the channel 8 tv programme introducing the restaurant..

We found it at level 4.. Its called tea cosy.. Very nice decors... Every corner stands an angel.. Lolx.. im not an angel person... but the entire ambience is quite soothing.. The gentleman serving us was very attentive and we had great service.. heres some pics of us taken in the restaurant..

the menu..

their cashier counter

Bing enjoying herself

some angels

Here comes our food... Jaq n I were not very adventurous about food.. we went for the set lunch consisting of soup of the day, dory fish or pasta and a glass of lemonade.. Bing went for the laska pasta...

Our soup of the day... taste not too bad...

Their speciality... the baked cheese mushroom.. i love it..
and i burnt my tongue becos i was greedy.. till now.. my tongue feels weird..

My dory fish and mash potato..
the dory fish is so so... the potato is nice....

The serving is not alot..so i dont htink its quite worth the price.. 13.95++ per set... Im rather disappointed with the serving and the taste of the dory fish... maybe next time just go for hte baked mushroom.. they have desserts like cakes n mudpies.. but we didnt order them..

We went shopping... headed to 313.. took a rest at the toast box...

we got bored n decided to take some pics of ourselves.. we headed out to the garden just outside the food court..

then we entertained ourselves with the "playground" meant for 2-12 yr olds.. lOLX.. our CHEAP thrills.. we played like kids.. Those rides and games are for kids.. but we didnt care... HAHAHAHAH....

the unstoppable kids in us made us play all of the things u will see below..

See saw lehs... but not those wooden kinds from my childhood days.. its made of some gd quality metal..

We enjoyed this game thingy here....

Our last pic of hte day..

we only left after some kid came in.. lolx...

tats my tuesday...

i enjoyed my holidy without hte students coming in... and the holiday week is just soooo short... nxt monday they will be back.. then its another wave of chaos n madness.. lolx..

I watched my first 3D movie just now with uncle big... Its called how to train your dragon.. really nice movie.. Love it...

hurhur.. im looking forward to 22 may 2010.. hiak hiak hiak...
smirks..

2010-03-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

Im blogging with mixed feelings....

Once again.... ive gone through a roller coaster ride of my life...

My wkend was great.... spent a sat at hdb in the morning... headed over to serangoon to get some things.... nice lunch with mum.... settled the birdies... dinner.. then hang out with alaska n shah for some late nite drinks...

chit chatted...... chit chatted... sunday...bf went to china.. i spent my day with shah, alaska, fah and hisen ming.. we went to the suntec IT show... packed like sardines... squeezed our way into the crowd... i didnt wanna go actually..... im sooo anti-crowd... b ut after much persuasion from my friends.. i went anyway..

we rewarded ourselves with a manhattan fish market lunch and coffee bean tea break.. i managed to get a lap top fan cooler for 5 bucks..and a fish bone cord organiser which i lost it subsequently..... doesnt cost much...

today i took half day leave to chill out with my girl frens... we had lunch at tea cosy in plaza sing.. this shop sells angel figurines and also food... i would say the food is just soo sooo only.... i will upload the pics once i get them from bing...

im so tired now... tired and upset with noco and myself.. he hasnt been very cooperative.. i havent been putting a lot of paitence with him.... he has been very nippy.. and i just cant take it ... u can call me a bad owner.. but when his bites get too painful.. i just whack.. u may say its wrong to do so.. i somehow feel its wrong.. but i still do it... Its just somehow.. my paitence with him is not there whenever i come home after a long day...

just today itself.. he refused to step up... i didnt deal with the matter well.. its just so frustrating... i dont have all the time in the world just for him.... i allocate 1 hr to him everyday regardless of how tired i am or how late the time is... my time is precious..im counting every single minute tat passes my life...

time is just soo precious.. the moment he doesnt comply.. i just get fed up... sooo many things to do... time will just drag along...

it took him half and hr to just step up on my fingers..argh.... the bf just scolded me tat becos he is scared of me... oh watever.. already happened...

then he lost 4 of his tail feathers just becos he was afraid of his own food bowl... i wrapped him under my shirt.. n i just dont understand how he managed to crawl out and get scared.. i dont remember trapping his tail under my shirt..tail can grow back.. tat im not so worried.. but im just soo sian...

if i had a little more paitence.. it probably be better....

i cant even handle a pet.... i doubt i can handle a kid oso..... i might end up to be on the headlines too... the headlines will go.. " mum strangles baby" .. its either i strangle myself or the child...

if u feel that im not suitable to own noco.. then u can take him away...

2010-03-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

Im so damn tired.. teaching special needs kids not easy job... required to play, educate, guide, accompany, chase, dance, sing, brain storm and sustain some injuries...

Today i was dancing with K.. tho he is only 3.. he has really good strength..we were dancing.. he suddenly swayed to the right.. he just pulled me along with him..i heard my back go crack crack crack.. OMG.. old woman here manx...

being in this job, i realise that sustaining injuries is a normal affair.. You are lucky if you just get some bruises from kicking, punching and boxing... When u are not tat lucky, maybe you might kana bitten by some kid.. If u are really damn sway, you will break your nose .. just like wat happened to my colleague...

its not a totally safe working environment.. I go home with mysterious bruises... Yeah... i did share some nice moments.. there are tiring and trying moments... Now then i realise why bing justs injured sometimes during course of work.. wo liao jie ni de tong ku..

2010-02-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

Just another so short wkend... how i wish my wkends are LONGER.. Ytrday is like a nua day... went to serangoon..then to the city sq mall...home.. out for dinner.. back home againx..

today.. we all went to bugis for prayers... then lunch..some shopping..home again..blah blah blah.. its the usual wkend affair... and my mum bought something from bugis street .. its a potted plant...

Take a look at the picture below.. do u find anything unusual??
Apart from those fancy CNY decorations sprouting on the branches, i bet that you cant find anything special about this plant... If you take a closer look at the plant.. you will realise that theres some weird looking thingy growing out from the flower petals... This weird looking thingy looks like a bird.. Heres some closer up pics..

Amazing?? It did amuse me... Some pple called it the "xiao niao shu" or little bird tree.. I do not know the exact name... But its sooooo cute! Not cheap tho... this potted plant costs 48 dollars.. And the seller kept saying tat these plants are LUCKY.. hmmm... sounds like some marketing gimmick to me.... netherless, mum fell for it..... As long as anything goes like fa cai or xing yun or fa da cai or super lucky, it will sell well...

Heres some updated pics of my noco... turning yellow already.. noco learnt to say his name and the word "kua kua jiao".

2010-02-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hi blog.. im back againx...

Its been a long week for me... im so glad that its finally over.. Everyday is a new challenge for me... Within a day.. many things can happen in class....

I count myself lucky that ive been posted to ms w class..learnt alot and alot from her.. These are the skills that i shall bring over to my own class next time.. And i truly hope that i will be posted to a good supervisor and a cooperative teacher partner...

I must say that ive my own set of rules and regulations that i want for my class... After being posted to different classes, i came out with my own strategies on how i want to conduct my lessons.. And honestly, i wld really nd someone who share the same views as me to be able to carry out all these things... So i really hope the next partner i have for my punggol class will have the same views as me..else..very hard to conduct class...

So i sincerely hope that my faithful gods can hear my prayers...

Somehow.. ive broken a forbidden and unspoken rule.. I seem to be quite attached to a kid in my class... i believe big big and huitian knows who he is.. lolx... the one tat rubs his hands when he gets stressed out.. oh boy.. i just find him amusing... he is those gong gong ones.. he belongs to the medium catergory .. (bing.. u will love to have him for ur class too) he has these funny dance moves that he executes when he is happy or when he hears music...

very well tempered.. even if u snatch away his things... he merely struggles and never resist... he eats slowly and the weird thing is.. he is very greedy..... only tears without sounds when he is very stressed...

sadly ...he is leaving us soon.. he is turning six.. and currently he is going for quite a few interviews from different special schools.. so .. it seems tat he will be leaving us soon... sighx.

now just savour my moments wtih him.. hopefully i dont get posted to another class...zzz..

2010-02-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

I watched 14 blades last cny wkend... The movie stars Donnie yen (quite cool image in this show), zhao wei, wu chun and Qi yu wu (tat media copy chap). The show is not tat bad..Its worth watching...

Surprisingly, i find wu chun quite shuai. =X Ok.. most pple will tell me that he is a bit the girly.. YEAh.. i agree... he do have some feminine features (those big eyes, long lashes, smooth fair skin.).. But overall.. he still look cute lahxx... Still better looking than some sg dudes wor... Quite an eye candy la.. he's a guy i dont mind staring at. =X

I think the only turn off is... his waist is smaller than mine.... I was examining his pencil thin waistline which he revealed in the 14 blades movie...Wah..got the abs muscles lehx.. BUT THENX... his waistline is obviously smaller than mine.. OMG... i feel like a gorilla now ya know. i cants tand guys having waistlines smaller than mine.. heres a pic of him below..

i collected my show luo album from bing. Thanks girl! You are soo sooo sweet.. I ordered it with bing.. And while im blogging, im listening to his songs from his new album.... Ok..he cant really sing live.. but tats ok.. his humour can easily cover up all other flaws...

I celebrated trishelle's bday on sat... finally had the cny gathering for the tan family side (my mum side).. i prefer my mum family side.. my uncles and cousins all quite ON and sporting de... had lotsa fun...

today i wore the red shorts tat huitian got for me... hurhur.. i can fit in!! just a lil loose.. but still quite ok..thanks girl!! Went to uncle big colleague's plc to bai nian.. i didnt really socialise much... i think im quite a reserved person when it comes to a group that im unfamilar with..

i start to realise that im quite anti-social in some ways... i only prefer going out with pple i feel more comfortable with... im not that keen in making new friends... usually i just clam up when theres tooo many pple i dont know.. haha....quite surprisingly.. i was quite outgoing when i was much younger.. i like to go out in groups..i love making friends... well..u know..the hanging out thingy...but as i grow up.. i prefer hanging out with pple i feel more close with... i prefer being at home..prefer being iwth my two lil Ts.

gosh near 11... better sign off..byeee

2010-02-15T10:04:00.002+08:00

Happy cny to all!! Its chu er now.. And its a monday... This is the first monday of the year that i dont suffer any monday blues.. becos.. ITS A HOLIDAY!!

Visited my uncle house before going to my sis house.. We didnt visit my mum's side this year. Some of my relatives have gone overseas. There wasnt an organiser to hold a gathering for all of us.. My cousin's MIL passed away. So they can host it at their place. Hence, ive less angbao to take this year.. Argh.. my yearly bonus is gone...

We played with wii at jeff house..watched the care bears movie... heres some pics that we have taken.. mostly my fav lil girl, shelle shelle..

2010-02-13T11:35:00.000+08:00

lol.. my first v.day present of the year.... from one of my kid..

2010-02-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

Days pass in a flash.. tooo many things...sooo little time...

Witht he CNY coming.... soo many preps.. buy this..buy that...change this ..change that...

HOw i spent last wk?

On friday... mr bigbig air plane me cos of work.. so i had a quiet dinner.. followed by some clothes dumping session and anime marathon...Sat was spent by doing some spring cleaning.. then drop by my sis new place... dinner... then bigbig went back to office......

Sun was a rush... we intended to collect my family protrait.. but too bad..no time... went marketing in the morning.. llunch with mum n bf.. then we rushed to the parrots outing... rushed back to pass jeff the access card keys.. rushed to do some shopping at marina sq.. then rushed for the movies...

before i know it.. its already monday... some monday blues..... stoned after work..basically tooo tiredx....... tuesday.. met bf at bugis...quick dinner.. then we went to collect the family protrait... realised my specs screw is getting loose.... grumbled at the fact that i nd to go back to the opitcal shop... rushed home... played with noco.. then go ntuc shopshop shop.. slept late

today .. im zombified... totally dragged by myself to the optical shop after work.. now im too tired to blog more...

now i understand why pple can just leave their blog empty for weeks... its total lack of time... i try to update as much as possible, k? yeapx..

wishing all a wonderful wkend and a great prosperous chinese new year....

2010-02-04T21:15:00.002+08:00

Wonder why my nose been bleeding every other morning....Must be tooo heaty liaox... Or maybe..due to lack of water.... hmm.. i roughly drink 2 litres of fluid daily.. oh well... sign of body breaking down?

=X

I realised that being in this job means that you have to tolerate the sudden sneeze-in-the-face by your students... I work within close range of my kids.. Whether or not they are sick, they still come to school.. Some came in with runny nose...some came in with cough... Its totally beyond your control to stop them from coughing/sneezing into your face...

You can always say that we can always get them to cover their mouths.. Well.. they dont do such practises.. even if i tried teaching them to do so, they dont really get it...

N so.. i totally understand how bing falls ill sooo easily.......

No matter how strong you are, you will still fall sick... Imagine every day different student..different form of virus....The mixture of different virus can be fatal to you... Its hard not to fall sick...

Today ive been posted to the occupational therapist.. Right now, we will be shifting from class to class..Mys upervisor wanted us to gain exposure.. so the move of shifting frm class to class has been implemented..

FRankly.. i do miss my kids.. Im so touched when my two kids were able to recognise me in the OT room.. One gave me a smile and ran towards me.. He held my hand and walk side by side towards his work area.. Another one insisted that i go back to class with him... Aww...

Gona miss working with them...

2010-02-03T21:53:00.003+08:00

Its bloggy time.. near 10pm.. feeling so tired now...

Theres never a day that im not tired..

Today i conducted a session with my kid... collick was on mc... made a blunder... ok.. when the "real" teacher not around... they tend to misbehave.. gosh..... i tot he's the most kuai one.. ok.. underestimated him...

Thinking back.. my wk has been fast paced...

too many activities...

this wkend is another busy one.. ive yet to get a pair of shoes for new year..crocs or birkies.. hmm.. i wonder.....

2010-01-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

im so tired now.. on n off sore throat... hope i get well sooooooooooooooooooon..

2010-01-24T10:28:00.002+08:00

Sunday again... So its blog time??

Im sooo tired now... I slept late last nitee.... Went for movie with shah,fah,alaska,loi,willi and HM. We watched hte blind side. Its based on a true show. Worth watching. Sandra bullock got some award for this film.. All of us celebrated shah's bday. So sorry shah.. i wasnt there for the cake cutting session... And no.. you wont be having noco cake this year. =)

So sleepy.. yet i dragged myself up arnd 8 plus am and just stoned... Cant bear to sleep too much..wkends are just this short,u know?

Its already 3 wks into my new job.. So far so good. Lots to learn.. I realised that im not good at imaginary play with the kids.. =X Made a couple of mistakes here and there... More stress coming in soon....

Had new kids coming in last wk.. thank goodness they are quite steady. They didnt cry. Cheers. haha..

Sometimes the kids are really uncontrollable... U really tear your hair on how to handle them..

Sometimes the kids just do something tat really touched my heart... Even the "brat" of the class does possess some gd sides,u know..

Sometimes the kids really say things that crack me up and make me happy the rest of the day... Like the other day.. my kid watched me peel off egg shells from hard boiled eggs by cracking the egg shells first. Then he handed over his hard boiled egg to me and he said: "yi jun.. can you help me hatch my egg?"

He wanted me to peel off his egg shell for him. I just looked at him and smiled. Its soo cute. As i knocked the egg against the bowl, cracks surfaced on the egg. He then asked," Is the chick coming?"

Sometimes u just spend your day trying to get the kids to stop doing not nice things... like hitting each other...blah blah......

Im still entangled in the same situation.. Somewhere deep in my heart.. I still mind the pay.. Its not a lot to begin with..Then theres alot of things i wanna do.. like going to taiwan just to watch my yu le bai life.. I doubt ive the time and money.. becos bing's holiday seasons somehow coincides with my term breaks (according to current teachers.we go for courses during term breaks) and parents meeting sessions. Crushed. Argh.. So lets just pray xiao zhu drops by sg lor..

i wanna buy my giant scrumpie... the bf dont approve cos ive no where for giant scrumpie.. ..

i wanna watch jam hsiao concert.. i doubt i will find any khakis oso..

i want more clothes....

i want this ..i waant tat..

its 11 already.. i think time for me to bath and wait for big big to come...

i miss my lil shelle shelle and travis... my two lil friend and family.....

2010-01-17T21:03:00.003+08:00

As promised earlier on.... I shall blog about hongjie's wedding...

Ive known hong jie for ten over years.. We used to be in the same class... Class 2c... Used to be closer... But we parted ways after O levels.. Then we only met up with each other a couple of times over those tens.. So im quite amazed that ive been invited to his wedding...

He married his long time beau , yiwen. I know her too. We were classmates.. They dated for more than 10 years. You can say tat they are childhood sweet heart bahx. Finally married lor.. Their wedding was held at M hotel...

My dearest uncle big became chauffer of the day.. He ferried alaska, loi and me over to the wedding venue.. Big didnt join us for the dinner..

We reached early..so we took some pics together.. I realised i wore the wrong shoes.. im sooo damn short lahx... boo hooo.... ok..im not tat tall to begin with....then took more pics here and there.. You can enjoy the following pictures below.. Its just a few only... I will upload the rest in my facebook account soon.. .Heres some preview...

I think we had this same pose somewhere too... hmm..de ja vu?

2010-01-17T00:07:00.006+08:00

12.20 liaox.. and.. im still online.. im waiting for uncle big to reach home. He sent my friends and I home.. We went to hongjie's wedding earlier on.. Well..shall blog about the wedding another time.. so Stay tuned , ok?

Ive some things tat i wanted to blog about.. but i havent got the time n mood to do so...

Since ive the time now, why not???

Last month, my family went for a graduation protrait photo taking session... Heres the final product from the photo shoot.. We picked 2 best shots from the entire lot..

I prefer the pic below...everyone is smiling..after much debate..we decided to use this as the final pic for our protrait.. =)

Last week, we went to the buddha tooth temple for some prayers... Then we headed to the pinnacles for some photo taking.. We went all the way up to the 50th storey.. Its soooo damn windy up there... The scenery is indeed mesmerising.. If you have the chance, please go up there and take some pictures.... I used my own sony cam to take these pics.. Ok.. not as good as a dslr.. but its better than nothing.. lolx..

I somehow prefer pics taken from dslr.. However, with considerations, the price and bulkiness of the dslr put me off the idea of getting one.. Heres some pics for all of you to enjoy..

After the photo taking session, we went to havelock for dinner at a zhi char stall.. Then we headed to og to get some toys for the kids...

Its 12.30 already... getting drowsy.. omg..its sat night already.. soon sunday..then monday..

To ease my blue...... i will cheer myself up that i will see my shelle shelle tml.. my cute lil niece... soooooooooo adorable.. love her much..smuacks...

im getting the monday blues already...... This is life after you work....

Thank god.. i work 5 days a week...

Next wk will be the wk when new kids come in.. tats when all hell breaks loose.. I can only pray that things go along smoothly...

2010-01-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

Super the tired now.... waiting for my hair to dry.. waiting for my bleach to load... After all these years, i still love my anime bleach... watching toradora also... And so many other dramas that i want to watch.. sadly... i dont have all the leisure time to watch them all..

oh well.. just wait till the wkends come.. Thats the only time when i get to watch all my fav clips....

I met up with shah n alaska last nite for dinner... uncle big came along too.. we had dinner at spize.. yesh...spize again.. X= we arent very creative when it comes to food. =X actually...we just like the food there.. besides..theres sooo many variety.. u can always have something different... its the company that matters when u are eating ur meal...

Imagine yourself eating candlelight with the Keymail or S**n M**g or some biatch or bastard.... Your abalone gona taste like rotten eggs..

After some conversation..i realise my pay is really rather low... for those of you who already know... i appreciate if you dont disclose it... Everyone gets 2-3 months of bonus... I will only get 1 month bonus... Ok..better than anything...

I can only pray that htey will increase my pay once i get my cert..soobs..

2010-01-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

Savouring my quiet moments while travis is still asleep behind me... Suppose to babysit him for 2-3 hours...

My first week of work is over. So far so good. Work is tiring. Nd to adjust my body for work sia. I travel like 1hr to work. Its gona get worse when i move to punggol. I love my kids. Loving them comes with a price too. They can be a lil tooo hard to handle at times. As they are autistic, time is still needed for them to get use to me..

I will be moving over to punggol site in mar/apr. My course will start in march. So i foresee more bz days... Ive been "interviewing" my colleagues. It seems tat we will be sent for short courses every 2-3 months. Not so frequent. Theres gd and bad la.. haha..good means i can rest...

Noco is still trying to adapt to my working life.. She has been very sticky... very noisy in the day when im not around... Sigh.. really hope she can adapt to it ASAP. If not, she will turn into a monster..

i miss my free time....

2010-01-06T21:12:00.001+08:00

my time at work pass like a flash light.. enjoyed my time with my kids... so shag after work.

2009-12-31T10:16:00.002+08:00

Last day of 2009 today...

any thoughts now? haha...

my only thoughts now are work, money ,time and noco. =X

alrites..shall not worry soo much...

had a long day yesterday

went to qian hu with uncle big.. then we went to pick my sis and her two kids. My sis went over to her new place to speak to the designers and fengshui uncle. We took her kids for lunch at gwc. Really had fun with both of them.. I think i still like meimei more. =X ok.. im bias. I prefer girls..

Amazingly, the two lil kids are quite well behaved. They take their meals without much fuss. Overall, they didnt kick up any fuss. We spent abt 10 hours with them..They played with each other. However, travis got rough and pulled tris's fingers. She yelped in pain.. She quickly took her fingers and slowly caress them. Then she pat her chest to tell us that she was scared. soo cute..

We headed down to ahyi's plc. We wanted reyes n travis to play with each other. Some warming up sessions between travis and reyes was needed. Travis is naturally shy. Tris is more sociable. Everything went well.. Reyes is soo funny. He took out some toys and placed them in front of tris. Then he said to tris, " here all boy boy toys. No girl girl toys. You ownself play". Then he went over to bring out some thomas trains to play with travis. So funny.. Poor tris.. left out. =X My sis joined back with us later..

Nap time was a breeze. They just conk off when its time for nap. However tris gave uncle big a hard time. =X i accidentally woke her up by the sounds of ice cream wrappers. Then uncle big had to carry her and pat her to slp. The moment he places her on the bed, she started crying... Then this continued for hte nxt 30 mins.

We headed down to novena sq in the evening... took a look at children's bed before dinner at xin wang...

was suppose to meet up with friends today.. but cancelled...

shall go watch my anime..do some clean up and leave the house..

2009-12-28T11:30:00.002+08:00

After the long long wait, i finally took my graduation protrait with my family at Serangoon Broadway. =D Im so delighted. Initially, my sis refused to wear her graduation gown. Lolx. In the end, she decided to wear it. Big thanks to my brother in law, jeff, and the sales pple at Serangoon Broadway! They persuaded her to wear her gown.

I would say that the service at Serangoon Broadway is good. They provide you with the make-up, various graduation gown from various schools and your attire. IF you are lacking of a proper tie, formal top or bottom, they have it! haha.. pretty amazing..

The photo shoot went well. The two lil kids are quite cooperative. =) However, travis got cranky towards the end of the photo shoot. Here's a pic of us before we headed into the studio to take the official pic.

I spent my sunday with my family and MOPA outing. Yesh.. its another parrots outing. Amelyn got a new lovie called terry. lolx. Meeting bigbig laters. Tml i will be meeting my SIM gals.

I love the new toy that i got for ah girl, my lovie. It looks soooo sweet lor.. Here's ah girl with her toy toy. =D

2009-12-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

Im back. haha..sorry for the long update..was bz with my other two blogs.. haha..funny sia... im just one girl who has 3 blogs...

i dedicated one blog for my noco.. www.noconocodreamsat.blogspot.com . You can catch updates on noco herex. =)

Ive my other blog which is www.maomaolivesat.blogspot.com . My comic passion is all here. lolx. Dreamed to be a cartoonist. =X

So pardon me if i take tooo long to update this blog here. Dont worry. I will still come back here to post some of my nonsense and every day life. As long as you read, i blog. =X

My past week has been very very pleasant.

Last sunday, we headed down to the birds carnival at serangoon. My family celebrated uncle big's bday..

We spent our monday at bird park. =X Bird park is my fav tourist attraction of all. I think i visited this place many times more than any other tourist attraction here in sg. Im still waiting for my pictures. =_="" uncle big sooo slowx....

Then its the xmas wkend.. i spent xmas eve with my family and jeff's. We visited my sis new home at hte pinnacles at duxton. Damn nice hdb flats. the 50th level scenery is ever so breathe-taking. If you have a chance, you should have a visit...

I spent xmas with huitian, ken and uncle big. =X we had fish n co for dinner.. then a movie later at MS. Its a devastating nite. i failed to catch 3 dolls to exchange for a scrump. i feel so like shouting **********************************************************************************. Feel free to replace the stars with vulgarities... Its a heartbreak. Usually, im able to get wat i want. Unfortunately, i failed to get hte scrump. so its a ***** expperience. sigh

2009-12-19T12:58:00.006+08:00

18th dec 2009
Spize cum chill out session with alaska, shah and fah.

I met my friends last evening. We once again had fun. Its our first small meet up with fah. Fah is shah's long time gf. haha..always a chance for a first time... Alaska knocked off earlier. So we met up at gwc to do some shopping.. Alaska was shopping for some xmas gifts. I am still looking for a tube top. I do not feel like heading down to bugis street for those cheapo tube top. Haha.. the first reason is that those tubes there may not be able to fit me. Nowadays, bugis street shops sell infant wear .They are meant for those tweens and teens. Girls of my size can never fit in.

We were at precious thots. Then i spotted a cute lil green frog plushie with huge eyes. It reminded me of shah. Lolx. 10 years ago, we met shah in the class of 4A. He belongs to the Green PE tee shirt gang. QTSS kids are grouped into different colored pe tee shirt. We both got the impression that shah looked like a frog. =X After much discussion among ourselves, we both decided to get the frog plushie for shah. We never ever gave our old fren a plushie before. Its called kiwi. Initially, we wanted to get a dog tag with the word,'shah', on it. Cant find any..

Somehow or another, the frog plushie,kiwi, become the star for the rest of the night.

Shah and fah dropped by a little later. We headed down to spize for our dinner. Spize is one of the frequent hang outs for us. During our free time, we cam-whore with kiwi.

Dont they look alike???

Heres our drinks.
Lime juice, ice teh tarik and mango watever thing

Shah's nasi lemak

My chicken and cheese murtabak

Fah's Nasi ayam kuntnip

Alaska's maggie goreng

Hungry yet? =X=X=X=X

After dinner, we dropped by video ezy.. Browsed around the videos.. Then we headed to Mc Cafe to chill out. Then we spent the rest of the night taking pictures with kiwi once again.

Kiwi's night out with 3 babes and another frog.

Kiwi's beloved Nokia

Kiwi and shah's love moments.

Kiwi and two babes.

Shah's the extra person in this picture.

Kiwi's hair smells great!

Self-admiration

Image from the mirror

Tat's all folks!

2009-12-18T15:57:00.003+08:00

Im sitting alone in my room... Its currently warm and humid.. How i wish that im sitting at mos burger and enjoying my ice milk tea right now.. Ice milk tea is my favourite...

Yesterday, Bing and I enjoyed ourselves with a simple lunch at BK, had some entertainment at prize stage and shopped at Haji Lane. Food, fun,play and shop! We are very lucky girls. The weather was rather cranky yesterday. One moment, there is showers and thunder. The next moment, the sun is out again. Thankfully, whenever we stepped out of the building, the rain had just stop drizzling. Zero rain drops fell on us. ^^
We got ourselves a matching top at haji lane. Both of us bought the same top from the same shop.

aRE You envious now? Lolx.. Well, dont be. You can always take a day off to do the same too. Bing is having her holidays now. So i managed to date her out for some relaxation. I wont have such luxury soon. Im going to work on 4th Jan. Now im savouring my last two weeks of "nua" days.

Im feeling so lazy now... Later this evening, i will be meeting up with alaska, shah, junyi and shah's gf. Before that, ive to head down to PS. Nd to get some things.. Come to think about it.. I do sound rather stingy in my previous post.. Im just bitching around lahx.. hahaha.. Dont take things to heart...

I belong to a different society group.. 99% of my friends are currently the working class people. Its quite obvious that im not in the working class group. Expensive gifts, restuarants, bowling and ktvs are very much affordable for them. however, these arent very affordable to me...

2009 is quite a crappy year for me. My career line was a total turn off. Thankfully, i found a job. I will be starting the new year with a new job. Sounds great.

In the year of 2009, i witness some events in my life that dampened my mood alot. It seems that the words, "Severing ties", are often used by people around me. Gone are the days where we all can sit together and laze the rest of the hours away together. I guess that i just have to accept that people change, things change and circumstances change..

Some people take time to accept the changes. Some people take longer time..Some people take shorter time... Impaitence only made things worse... When someone is still having some difficulties accepting changes, it is better to leave the person alone and allow time and space.. But such things didnt really happpen.. sigh.

After all thats said and done.. I have already come to accept the changes in my life over the past few months..

After some incidents in 2008, ive learnt not to meddle with affairs of others.. Hence, i didnt really poke my nose into the matters involving pple around me.. Unless im requested to, i shall consider. Otherwise, i stay clear.

Theres this saying from jun yi.. Flowers bloom..Flowers wither... Whether the flowers bloom or wither, it depends on the care taker of the flowers. The flowers do no depend on the viewers of the flowers..

Simply put.. if its an matter between two others, its best not to get involved. When one needs help, one will seek for it. You can offer your help. But if no one wants the help, then dont force it..

Im not pin pointing anyone here... Its no longer worthy to point fingers ..Neither it is worthy to feel guilty and pick up the pieces.. The best is to let nature take its course...

now its time for me to head out.. shall enjoy my night with my friends.. cya again blog

2009-12-15T17:21:00.003+08:00

Month of december is the month to go broke. =X

its a month of gatherings, bdays and wedding.. Then gatherings come with entrance fee de wor! Haha.. nd to buy xmas gift . Nowadays..bring a gift for xmas gathering very the IN =X Omg... My ah gong (SG Pools) hasnt gimme my toto ang bao money lehx. Aiyo.. Haha.. not i stingy la...

Your auntie here dont wanna spend 20-30 bucks on an entrance fee for a xmas gathering... Plus a meal which easily costs 25-30 dollars.. then after meal chill out .. 30-40 on ktv or watever shit... it cost up to 100 per nite wor.. very siong lehx.. Your auntie where got soo much money.. =X=X=X=

Currently no income lahx.. but i still will prepare my gifts to my girls around me.. =X note.. its girls only hor! Guys ..u step aside la.. .gIrls gifts soo easy to buy.. give them cute cute hp chain or choker or lip gloss or shawl.. they happy liaos... Guys lehx... wah piang.. iphone la... dslr lens... aiyo... where got money to buy for you.. Lolx... Anyway.. back to my december topic...

On sunday, i attended Jiawei's wedding. I get to meet my long lost friends againx. Its been 2 yrs since we last got together... Meeting them once again sure brings back some memories.. Wahx..Makes you think about the good old days...

I remember the girl talks in toilets.. the class balloting... the butter rice... the boring IS modules.. hahaha..

aiya..We met each other in ngee ann polytechnic.. Slogged together for 3 yrs to obtain our diploma.. Parted ways..Some went to ns..and thenx..some went to school..some went to work... However we still keep in contact by attending our yearly CNY celebrations..the once in a while gathering..

Unfortunately, we failed to meet up this yr.. This one can come..tat one can not come..end up..gathering meet ups change n cancelled and changed and cancelled.. Organise one oso gek xim lor.. haha...

All of us entering another journey of our lives.. Quite a few of my friends are in the process of getting married.. Ron, James, quanwei and xinwen got themselves a home with their other halves.. Soon to hear the wedding bells again... Daniel got himself a girl... Brandon.. i guess he has a gf lahx.. He is quite a catch la... Who will dont wan him? haha.. OK la.. heres the picture.. i think some of u already saw it in FB liaox.

Yeah.. like tat lor...

Then this coming friday.. i be meeting my frenless friends.. The usual chill out i guess.. hurhur..

Then speaking of gatherings and organising one.. Sometimes u really can organise till you vormit out ur blood and bones... I believe all of us are bz pple..We got work and our own lives to live...

Then its like.. u pick an auspicious date..go through your list of friends.. mass send out tat sms.. hoping pple can make it.. Then u wait for the reply.. sometimes it takes days for one to reply.. wah piang eh... one sms nd 20-30 secs reply de mahx.. some pple take days wor... they nd 24 hrs to punch in one word de.. =X

Then the headache part comes... one say can come... one say can not come.. one see tat one no come..he oso no come..one see tat one come...he dont wan come.. aiyo..... organising one event become sooo political liaos... Alamakx.. Jin Cham rahx.

Then last min..this one say can not come... tat one come without invitation.. omg.. so headache....

then end up..ur gathering organised...postponed..cancelled..then the cycle repeats itself...

this is one of the reasons why i dont really adore organising a gathering.. But of course, it depends on the pple involved in the gatherings lahx.. Sometimes if the company is worth while, its quite worth it to go through the trouble to organise a meet up...

sometimes we lead our own lives.. we still nd our friends too.. Doesnt mean that you have urself a gf/bf/hubby/wife, u can ditch ur friends.... Becos we are the pple who will listen and comfort you when u have troubles with tat other halves of yours... So treat us friends a lil better... alrites..blogged too much.. leave other thoguhts to next time..

2009-12-07T15:20:00.002+08:00

Ohaiyo Gosaimas mina-san! Boku no tataeema desu!

Haha..A not soo good jap language opening sentence.. =X i still love my jap animes..

Sunshine Yingz celebrated her 21st bday on 4th dec at Aranda chalet in Pasir Ris.. She is my KT net fren. Long time no see her oso..Vic and I arrived past 11pm at the chalet. Lolx.. we went to travis's home before tat. We brought him out to Mac for awhile... I caught her a scrump doll. Its something that she likes. Then we hang around..chit chat chit chat.. before we know it, its already past 2am.. Reached home near 3am... slpt around 4 am...

we actually wanted to go to HDB on saturday.. But apparently, theres no demo units. So we changed our plans... I woke at 8am on sat due to the ceremonial music downstairs.. Stoned the entire saturday.... irritatingly..i just fall back aslp...

Sunday we watched broadway beng.. haha.. i watched him in 2006... then watched broadway beng again with uncle big in 2007.. Now its the 4th instalment... I bugged the bf to watch broadway beng with me againxx... This time, the broadway beng is held at esplanade. He upgrades liao lor... He started out at DBS arts centre housing 200 audience.. Now its at esplanade theatre housing 2000 audience. Uncle big booked quite a gd seat. 2nd row from the front..

I spent the rest of the wkend doing up my xmas tree.. haha.. mum bought a "live" xmas tree from cold storage.. Heres the final look of our xmas tree... jingle bells jingle bells jingle bells rock.. jingle bells swing and ingle bells ring..

2009-12-02T13:17:00.002+08:00

Noco is turning 5 months old already... right now she has been progressing well.. Besides being clumsy, she is overall quite ok.. I wonder when her feathers will molt into the striking yellow.. she looks like a 3 month old baby sun conure. =_=

she is here for more than 3 months..She is doing better thn i have expected. Heres a checklist of things she can perform

1. Come over on command: Fairly good
remarks: She comes over to me on command quite well unless there is no distractions. She doesnt respond to uncle big

2. Kiss kiss command: Excellent
remarks: she kisses me n uncle big on command.. Lolx.. Posted a vid on my fb. U might have already watched it.. She is not shy to do it in front of others..

3. Step up command: Very good
remarks: Only listens to me. Very good. However, there are times when she gets cranky too..haha.. Doesnt work all the time with uncle big..

4. Say up command: Very good
remarks: she is becoming softer n softer.. wonder why

5. Say up up command: Not good.
remarks: depends on her mood.

6. Flap wings command: Good
remarks: Very well done when there is no outsiders around.. she becomes shy when theres someone else watching..

7. Biting issues: Fairly good
remarks: she still nibbles. It doesnt hurt. But its still considered as a biting. Uncle big frequently gets nibbled on. She nibbles when she doesnt wanna be touched also. Currently, she doesnt allow travis n trishelle to touch her. lolx. But..She mixes well with the MOPA outing fellas. Doesnt bite them. Good sign.

yeapx... the end.. haha...

2009-12-01T14:09:00.000+08:00

Whee! We manage to get the Bukit merah flats.. ready in 2013. =D

2009-11-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

This is our first picture taken together.. The 3 of us.. Me uncle big and noco.. And noco boxed me.. hahahah... maybe im tooooooooo close for comfort? =X Maybe my hair irritated her?? =X

2009-11-25T14:11:00.003+08:00

Alrites! New blog skin! Feeling fresh?

Actually, i didnt wanna change my blogskin... Unfortunately, the pictures of my previous blogskin are not showing up. So I took the pain to change my blog skin.. Looking at this current blog skin... I would say that the pain is worth it...

Sometimes i feel that my life is just like a dream.. How i wished it was just a dream..The moment i wake up, everything will be fine and purely perfect..

How i wished that reality is not real and the entire world behaves the way i want it to be..Very often, things may not go the way we want them to be..

People often say that reality is cruel. Yeaps. It is. It gets cruel especially when the cold hard fact of what is has been thrown straight in your face.. Reality is often the toughest challenge that one has to face..And reality is often something that you just can not ignore it.. Even if you were to ignore reality, it gets right back at you twice as hard..

Do i sound emo ? Well.. i am.. But just a little.. Not enough for me to walk the planks and jump into an ocean of sharks...

Its about a month back when i was offered a job.. Well.. u guys know wat job it is.. I was thrilled.. I was happy..I was excited..I was relieved.. Everyone around me shared my joy.. As time goes by.. this job thingy seem to be a dream...

The sad fact is that i have not even penned down my signature on the letter of appointment.. It dragged for a month already.. I have no idea when will be the day that i stepped into the office to collect my appt letter and medical check up form. I did my part by calling the hr.. Each time, she explained to me that Sata has not revert back to her on the coy's corporate account.. She kept telling me that she will get back to me asap..

Sata is some medical clinic owned by gahment tat provides medical check ups.. With no pre-employment medical check ups, i can not start work. Gosh.. it went on n on for a month already.. The silly and naive me was waiting and waiting... i did apply a couple of jobs while waiting.. but there wasnt any positive response..

I feel so sian now.. I was brought to heavens.. and i slipped back to hell again.. Yaya..sure you will just say.. "Oh its just a job.. just carry on looking.." Sigh.. u cant feel the pain tat i felt.. True enough..its not the first time i fell to hell.. But it doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt to fall..

Now.. im crawling my way up from despair.. Gotta get back on my feet.. Ive gotta be back in a chirpy tip top form for a potential interview.. Its a reverse effect to go into an interview room feeling fucked up about life..

I spent a morning watching my silly bird, noco.. Yesh.. she is one silly bird who is forever clumsy.. .. She trips over anything for no reason.. She has this special ability to fall off her gym, her stand, her play gym, her toy or almost anything that she is standing on for no apparent reason.

Her eye sight is perfect.. she is able to balance herself... But she just has to be clumsy.. She doesnt look at where she is going...she doesnt take note of her own footings.. She just doesnt care..She will just walk straight ahead even tho there are obstacles ( e.g. metal rings, toys, etc) on the ground that can obstruct her way.

For the time span of 20 mins, she fell down 3 times from her cage toys. Twice, she rolled across her cage... She ends up on her back.. Once, she fell head first.. Seriously, im kinda worried for her.. If she was more careful (look before you step forward), these 3 falls would not have happened.. And sometimes i wonder if she is physically injured. =_="

And then she has to scare me by laying down flat on the floor.. I thought she suffered some brain concussion. And then she tried to do an egg roll on her cage floor.. sigh.. clowning around all the time.. after making me worried, her clowning acts make me smile..zzz...

Next , she just have to do this action.. look at the stupid bird in the pic below..

OK.. u wonder wats wrong with the pic..

That silly bird is hanging upside down right above her water bowl. She just have to drink water from this position..Knowing that she is born clumsy, im a lil worried that she will fall off and dive into the water bowl head first. ZZzz.. Will she drown?

2009-11-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

Aww.. my back hurts.. lolx..really grown old le.. =X been packing up my house.. tomorrow will be the day for my house's window makeover.. Yeaps. Good bye to the 28yr old windows... And Hello to brand new set of windows..

Tomorrow gona be chaotic.. so.. i better sleep early tonite.. lolx..

nothing much happening in my life right now..

a curious part of me made me click around my older blog posts once again..

My blog has been around since 2005.. Over the years.. i made great friends.. I lost a few friends also.. I think im quite pessimistic too.. haha... The best way to pick urself up from the ruts is to be grateful for everything that you have now..

Im a blessed girl who got to know a handful of great friends. I know someone for many years..she's tolerated my childish crap.. she endured the times when i never act my age..Her tolerance level is high... i can "yum" to her the entire day..she wont slap me.. i still remember she helped me pack up my school stuff as im quite a klutx.

Ive lost and found another long time friend who listens to my whines about life about hte bf.. Accompany me on the msn when im dreadfully at work.. lolx..

Ive two lil birdies at home.. I had my dream bird now.. She is noco.. tho she can be really annoying and sometimes a lil nippy, she is overall an angel and a clown.. I still like the way she sits on her food bowl.. I can only pray she doesnt shit into it.. Ive a lovie called ah girl.. Our love hate relationship.. lolx.. It entertained my life..

Ive a nice home with my fav pillow n bed to sleep in.. I have dinner cooked for me everyday.. Someone irons my clothes.. i dont have to worry about burning my finger tips from cooking oil or the hot iron..

Ive two lovely niece n nephew who always bring a smile to my face.. And yeaps..the list of things im grateful for goes on n on n on n on...

The easiest way to feel miserable is to compare yourself with someone else and focus on the things that you do not currently have..

2009-11-09T14:19:00.003+08:00

Another wonderful weekend..

I think i love wkends... we get to head out...we get to meet people..we get to see my lovely niece n nephew... we just get the fun... No parrot outing tho..

How i spent my wkend?

I met up with shah , alaska, hsienming at orchard road.. Haha.. its been MONTHS since we both last stepped into orchard road on foot ..walking frm malls to malls... Yesh.. i seldom head down to orchard road anymore. UNLESS im meeting my friends there..

on normal days, we usually stray away from orchard road especially on saturdays.. Last sat was an exception.. Shah had his last paper .. he wanted to shop.. they wanted to shop.. i feel like shopping too.... End up.. i bought nothing... =X

We are fortunate pple... The christmas light up along orchard road started on last saturday.. We get to see the pretty lights.. heres a snap shot..

We wanted to eat at botak jones... however, its FLOODED with people.. we ended up at cineleisure orchard... We had pasta mania... heres a few pics of us.. hurhur....

i love my 5 stars dress..

Our dinner.. lolx... Well.. more of my own dinner.. i didnt take any pics of their food.. =X we all dig in once the food is laid right in front of us.. hurhur..shop till hungry liaox. =X

Their Loot of the day.. lolx.... I wonder how much they spent.. =X Dont be fooled by tat lil amount of paper bags that you see now... they combined everything into just one bag.. =X..

Sunday was simple.. i bought a pair of crocs covered shoes for myself.. uncle big bought himself crocs too.. Satisfied with the comfort... shall throw out my old shoes tat are wearing off ..

2009-11-02T16:29:00.003+08:00

My nice weekend..

Over the weekend, i bought my favourite artist's book.. already showed alaska.. haha

On friday, we bumped into our friends.. chit chat chit chat till late night...

On saturday, we brought noco to her first vet visit. Haha... ok.. ive a gut feeling noco is a girl.. so let her be a girl... Its at yishun. So far hor? The vet took a check on her... she is perfectly healthy.. she has been well-behaved...

uncle big and I returned home... rest and relax... took a nap.. Headed out for dinner.. it was pouring once again.. we wanted to head to vivo ..however.....tight traffic forced us to go to alexander village for our dinner.. After dinner , we chilled out at starbucks...

haha.. my life seems pretty normal... U would say a little dull too... but on and off..there will be little things to make you smile... A nice warm soup can bring you a smile.. Watching noco do some clumsy stuff will bring you a smile...

On sunday, it is the most fulfilling of all.. we headed to many places... Did lotsa stuff.... We celebrated travis's bday at crystal jade. Unfortunately, he was sleeping throughout hte lunch. Trishelle was dressed in a retro outfit. Gosh..so damn cute.. feel like kissing her. lolx...will upload some pictures later for all of you...pics are iwth uncle big.. We gave travis an ang bao for his day.. lolx..couldnt find a space ship for him..so sorry traviss..Uncle big and I promised to buy a toy for her too.. We both want to make tis day an enjoyable day for both kids.

Thankfully, she was paitent enough for us to finish our lunch before we brought her to motherworks to choose her toy.. Uncle big left the restaurant earlier... As he walked away, trishelle cried in my arms... the moment we reunited outstide the restaurant, she flashed us a grin. OMG... she must have been worried that uncle big has abandoned her toy mission..

she chose a caterpillar from vrtech.. omg..so ex for a lil toy.. but its ok... we dont always have the chance to bring her out to choose toys.. we shopped at fox... i realised tat trishelle is a typical young lady... she loves pretty things... and she knows how to look pretty.. Uncle big picked a woolen hat for her.. the moment he placed it on her head right in front of a mirror... she beamed with joy... omg.. she smiled at herself int he mirror... when we found a right fit for the hat.. she is sooo happy.. she kept holding her hat...

After we paid for it, my sis put it on for her...and she refused to get it taken down. =X so hiao hiao. =X Then i realised she love the celestial series of diamonds too.. we happened to walk past goldheart.. she was fascinated by the sparkling diamonds.. she kept touching the glass wall.. smiling at the diamonds.. wah.. wah wah..so young.....yet she knows how to appreciate such things.. =X finally travis woke up... we took some pics before we head to parrots outing again..

we chit chat at the outing... let noco hang out with some bird frens again.. lolx.. well.. travis was rather reluctant to let us go earlier on..so uncle big and i decided to look for him.....we met up in jurong point later int he evening again for him... spent some time with him..and now he is a happy kid.. lolx...

then we met up with alaska and hanjie at tiong bahru for supper.. hurhur..fulfilling wkend...

Its a truly fulfilling wkend..certain things happened and im enlightened of certain things..

2009-10-29T17:56:00.002+08:00

Hi blog..

i found a job... its at metta pre school.. now im waiting for the hr to contact me once my appt letter and medical form are ready..

its not a near to home work place.. most likely will die from the travelling... My school is in the west.. i work in the east.. high and likely i might die again from the travelling...

but finding a job is torturous.... been to tooo many interviews..demoralised..disheartened.. life is never easy... it just gets tougher...

getting a job tat im looking for.. its a gd opportunity not to be missed..

so here i am... gona sacrifice myself for the travelling....

i can only pray my body will tolerate the journey... and my noco will become an angel..

noco is like my baby.... she is turning 4 months old...still very baby mentality.. she will depends on me... at least she is already off her baby formula... she doesnt really play much on her own...

everyday will become a day where i rush home to play with her.... then how am i gona meet my friends then? tats a very gd qtn... i dont know how to answer... maybe uncle big take over? then ive to go for courses... who plays with her? ARGH.. bothersome..

but she is the pet tat ive always wanted..can just dump her somewhere and ignore her needs..

i think with this.. it comes to a common understanding on why ur friends disappear after htey have kids... becos after work.. they nd to go home to their wife /hubby and kids..

and so.. this marks another truth.. we become more n more friendless as we grow up..

growing old... finding job...getting a bf/gf...marriages... kids.... these are part and parcel of time.. and these are sooo capable of eating into your own personal time and you have to prioritise..

u have to diivide your time for ur family, ur work, ur friends, ur pets, ur bf/gf/wife/hubby.. And no matter how you plan things out.. its difficult to satisfy EVERYONE.

its like a normal thing.. we do feel sad when we get neglected by our friends or bf or family... things change.. priorities change...

but still.. spend a lil time with your loved ones... no one gurantees u a tomorrow

2009-10-27T09:52:00.001+08:00

Still my sweetie pie.. Isnt she cute? Love her to bits. lolx... Tats trishelle... A very nottie bb girl... 8months old liaox.. Travis celebrate his 2nd bday soon.

2009-10-25T11:09:00.001+08:00

Heres the pic of the bag that uncle big bot for me..Looks osmething like tat..but not leather.. lolx

2009-10-22T09:22:00.002+08:00

A depressing truth

Depressed, Depressing, Depression, Feeling Fucked up,

Feeling annoyed by almost every single thing,

Moody swings...

All these emotions and feelings seem common these days.. And i start to wonder..

Where are the days of smiles and pure happiness?

its much easier to feel depressed nowadays.. Becos everyone else feels sian about life...

2009-10-21T08:55:00.002+08:00

---->On growing older..

I feel that i am becoming an old woman.. Ive white hair.. Jaq spotted it for me.. My very first white hair... My hair falls easily now.. i was just twisting n playing with my hair..3 strands of hair fell out. gosh...

And im only 25 this yr.. Turning 26 in less than 6 months time... I think i will scream at my first wrinkle... Girls...You should start your anti-ageing regime NOW... Those who are reading my blog are age ranged between 20-28. Do it NOW! We must look younger. =X

-----> Monday event...

On monday, i met up with bing and jaq after my 2nd interview at metta.. We had lunch at V8. Bing and I wasnt satisfied with the lunch tho. Their pasta arent very delicious. Moral of the story is V8's pasta are not very nice.. I think the baked rice and western food (chicken cutlet, chicken chop,etc) taste better...

Jaq's V8 bacon cheese chicken chop is way better than ours... To make my lunch worse,I accidentally poured in salt into my soup.. Thankfully our chicken wings are not too bad..

We updated each other on our lives... Headed for a shopping trip at haji lane and arab street.. We wanted to buy some clothes.. Lolx..Ended up empty handed on the clothes.bing bought crystals and jaq got herself a pair of satin gloves...

After hte shopping trip, we are back at bugis junction. We stoned at MOS burger. Chit chat. Then off to cold storage..

I think its really a luxury to meet a couple of friends just for a meal or kopi. We dont have all the time in the world once we entered the work force.. Huda cldnt join us as she was working.. Bing n Jaq are in teaching sector. So their timings are more flexible. My life will once again change if i settle down with the usual 8.30-5.30pm job.. And the only time to meet up is on a wkend.

------> On tuesday..

Celebrated our 3rd year anniversary... Yesh 3 yrs already.. So fast. haha.. he bought me a simple coach bag.. I gave him a homemade booklet with pictures inside..

Had lunch with my mum at crystal jade.. we OVER-ate. =_______=" We ordered too much... Mum wanted to go for the promotion.. Once your bill hits $50, you can get a crispy half chicken for $1. Uncle big and I are so damn bloody full...

after lunch, we went to PS for movie.. we watched 500 days of summer.. The movie is just so-so only.. Not soo fantastic.. Nearly dozed off oso. =X

Dinner was at tiong bahru plaza ajisen.. I love ramens. hurhur.. and so.. its passed 36months....

2009-10-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

Alrights... Heres the pictures that ive promised.. not alot..

First up... heres a lutino peach face love bird... if not wrong.. the name is tweety.. She is amelyn's lovie.. very active lil birdy.. but quite sticky to its owners..

Heres a pair of budgies... the white one is the albino budgie... i wonder how it can stay sooo white.. lolx..Amazingly..Noco is quite gd with birds smaller than herself.. She didnt disturb them...

Heres Noco and Sunny.. both are sun conures... Well.. i HOPE noco is a sun conure... Noco is much bigger than sunny... Her tail is longer too... Alot of buzz on Noco being a hybrid conure...Hybrid conures means.. noco is a product of a jenday conure and a sun conure.. If noco doesnt molt into the bright yellow sun conure within a yr or two, noco is a hybrid bird..

Now heres a pair of Black head Caiques... They look fierce hor? Lolx.. One is called pretty..the other is called Tango... Both a lil unfrenly..tho they are beautiful to look at..i didnt play with them..

I like this guy below...Its called baby... A masked fischer lovebird.. Damn cute la... it knows how to grab attention... willing to hope on ur finger... basically monkeying around every corner... can see tat its a really happy birdy..

Heres a pacific blue parrotlet.. Another cutie... about the size of a budgie.. This guy is called Tyson...Tyson is the most shy birdy around... It sits quietly at a corner.. Occassionaly, it will mumble a few words.. U have to listen closely to decipher wat its tryingn to say..Doesnt mix around.. Play by itself... Hides away from strangers....
And heres Kacy with noco..sharing the same stand....

2009-10-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

hi blog..

i wonder who reads u..

im doing ok.. tomorrow im going for a 2nd interview at metta school... drats.. its at simei... pretty far from my plc.... still quite sian about the distance... how i wished i found a job nearer to home...

last wk was indeed terrible for my family...

first .. travis fell ill on saturday night with gastric flu... then this flu bug spreads itself around us... monday was my dad and sisters' turn to get it.. then followed by trishelle... tuesday..jeff n his mum got the gastric flu bug as well... then it spreaded on to my mum on wednesday.. then uncle big's turn on thursday..

now we know how lethal and fast spreading a gastric flu bug can be.... i guess H1N1 spreads this quickly as well...

and the news been announcing about the nxt flu season tats coming.... And so... everyone of you better take gd care of urselfs... eat well..drink well and do enough exercise..

just keep urself fit... its not a great experience to be sick...

yesterday we visited travis.. that poor boy..he shrunk... due to his gastric flu, he hasnt been eating much.. he drunk only milk... he is soo skinny now... poor chap.. been laying down most of the time as he doesnt have energy.... things improved slightly today.. trishelle still having diahorrea tho..

today uncle big, noco and i went for our first parrot outing... theres a group of parrot lovers who meets up weekly.. they will bring their birds along... have some picnic and chit chat session.. today is our virgin attempt in a parrot social gathering setting..

Noco is the youngest there.. and also the biggest size.. =x Almost hte same size as the two black headed caiques, pretty and tango.. its a type of conure as well..I will upload the pics once its ready... Unfortunately, i didnt play with them..cos they were rather unfriendly..

I played with kacy the green caped conure n baby the lovebird.. Baby is sooooooo cute!!! very very sociable.. it doesnt bite... kacy was nippy.. i tot she is supposed to be the tamest.. =____="" she climbed on to us and refused to come down.. when we used our fingers to approach her, she just nip it to show that she wants to stay put...her owner has her own blog.. U can visit it here. http://www.bryansangels.net/

Kacy knows quite a few tricks.. very smart bird... But noco got really jealous when kacy played with uncle big.. lolx

Im quite proud of noco.. she was really nice to the other bird owners present... she didnt nip them... And she has a common trait as me... We both need time to warm up to pple.. lolx.. once she is warmed-up, she is sociable with u... I guess we have to bring her to more gatherings... She has to learn to open up and be less jealous.. She cant just stick to me and uncle big all the time...

I realised budgies are cute too.... pacific blue parrotlets can speak too.. today i learnt a few things..hurhur..

2009-10-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

Weekends usually pass by quickly... I went for jeff's bro wedding dinner on saturday.. Sunday was spent travelling around SG..

My life changed alot after a new pet bird came along.. now ive to clean up two bird cages over the wkend and spent at least an hr a day for noco out-of-the-cage play time.. We have yet to build up noco's play gym... Still training her to come over to me on cue.. Tho its quite tough to train her as she is always easily distracted, i enjoy training her. Its satisfying to see her "obey" my cues.

Sorrie if im talking alot about noco.. haha.. well..other aspects of my life arent that interesting lahx... I think the number one hot topic for everyone is "Karen, when are u gona land a job?" And this is also another topic which i do not wish to talk about.. If i found a job, u will eventually know about it somehow or another..

And this job topic.. ive nothing much to say..except.. its to god's will...ive been applying..ive been attending interview.. but no gd news. Finding a job is fate.. There are coys with positions that ive been applying for the longest time and i didnt get it... If i get it, i get it. If i dont get it, i dont get it.. like this lor...

Jobs.. If u are very lucky, u get to have a job with reasonable pay and its something u like.. If u are slightly lucky, u get a job with reasonable pay and its something u feel quite ok about and dont mind doing.. If u are lucky, u have a reasonable paying job and its stable.. If u are not that lucky, u are underpaid but u love ur job to bits..If u are unlucky, u are being underpaid and doing something u ok about..If u are very unlucky, u are being underpaid and doing something u hate...

The next hot topic is..."when are u gona get married?" The answer will be subjected to whether ive to $$ for the wedding and house, Whether i feel like getting married, whether i have a stable career...soooo many "whethers".. Definitely not in the near future... If things were to go smoothly ever since i grad, i probably wld have gotten married much earlier... God knows man... Haha.. well..marriage another milestone and another bunch of commitments yet again.. oh well.. dont wanna think about it now..

anyway..enuff of words.. heres two pics for all of u..

2009-09-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

You only have yourself now..

2009-09-29T13:34:00.002+08:00

A pet is a friend and commitment for a lifetime..

Noco will be my friend for the next 20-30 yrs.. tats 2-3 decades... =X ive been complaining about her.. but still i do enjoy myself with her..

I usually spend an hr a day with her.. During this one hour, noco will have her usual cuddles, play time and obedience training.. She is taught to step up when u say UP. now she is mimicking the word UP. lolx.

Its the 5th day of training "come here". Its a cue for her to come to me when i signal the cue.. very very rusty skill... it depends on her mood on whether she wants to come over to me when i signal for her to come here.. Her very short attention span doesnt help either... Have to improvise my teaching methods.

No matter how busy im going to be, rain or shine, ive to squeeze an hour to take her out for play time.. Right now she is easily contented with some hugs and throwing some mischief at me... As she grows older, her needs might change...

and then.. i start to worry if i secure a full time 8-6pm 5 days a week job..my time with her will be cut by about 90%. Now im adjusting her to fit my timings.. if ive to work everyday, i guess ive to readjust her againx. Im gona miss her.. and i think she will miss me too...

right now im preparing my mum on how to deal with noco.. Noco is like a toddler.. well.. toddlers sometimes cry or wail or throw tantrums just to get some attention for nothing... same applies to noco..

of course, we all have to check if there is anything amiss.. sometimes the kid might be sick or the bird might be scared...

thrsday i shall be free labour.. gona take care of travis for free.. zzz... its ok...=X i prefer baby sitting reyes.. cos i get money.. =X

2009-09-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

My weekend

On friday, i celebrated hari raya at shah's place. hurhur.. Shah invited the qtss gang and his frenless creatures butties. Uncle big came along.. Its my first time inside shah's place.. Ironic.. I noe him for rouhgly 10 yrs... never step foot inside before.. hurhur.. Come to think about it.. only eve, lay yee,edmund yeo and qw dropped by my plc b4. =X

Sha's parents are nice....very sociable.. the dinner was fantastic... For those of you who dropped out in the last min, u missed the good food! Shah's tib bits are soo yummy.. i almost wanted to steal some home. =(

After hte dinner, we had a late night kopi session at coffee bean holland V. chit chat chit chat.. then home sweet home... heres our group pic.. will upload more pics into my fb..

Sat was laid back.. cleaned the cage. .went ikea.....brought mama out...

I went to Sci centre after lunch today... Its been many years since i last went for a visit to sci centre...some experiments still amuse me.. hurhur.. i was never good in science..oopx..

bumped into joslyn n derrick.. both my poly frens.. hahahah.. came back home to cook cup noodles for dinner..

and so.. heres my wkend.

2009-09-23T08:27:00.002+08:00

++Some shopping++

Yesterday i headed down to tiong bahru and bought a top for myself. Its for interviews. I felt my current 2 tops arent good enough. Bought Nexcare acne patches. Walked around the mall. Strolled home.

Reached home. Greeted by ah girl and noco.

++Daily routines++

Ever since noco's arrival,regardless of how late i sleep, i drag myself out of bed at 7am. Its feeding time for both ah girl n noco. Ive to make sure tat noco gets fresh water n food in the morning... Thank god that noco stopped her morning feedings already... i guess she is still used to me waking up early just to feed her. Anyway, if i were to start an office job, i will have to attend to her around this timing. So shall make it as a habit now

I will continue searching for jobs..clean the house..do some occassional work. . .

For the next few days till the end of the month, i will be confined at home in the evenings. This is because ive to feed noco. (>_______<)

See..this is the commitment and sacrifice that u have to give to ur pet. If u are a lazy lassez faire person like me, think twice before u want a demanding pet like a parrot or dog. Think even harder if u wanna get urself pregnant. Of course, theres joy in taking of pets... not that they are entirely monsters... There are also joy in taking care of a human child... but its gona cost you multiply times more expensive to take care of one.

++Uncertain future++

Sometimes i wonder about the future. I start to worry. I worry whether i am able to cope with noco when im out working. Ah girl is fine. She has all along been this way.. She is happy and contented when i give her food and speak to her.. She gets her daily treats from my dad... Noco is different. Perhaps she is a baby. Ah girl is already 6-7 yrs old. Therefore, more independent and mature. Noco gets jealous easily. Noco seeks for more attention..more sticky...

i start to worry when noco starts screaming at puberty stage..

i start to worry whether i can still reach my dreams... already volunteered myself.. applied the positions ...re-applied the positions.. i get nothing.. the nxt route that is feasible is to get a certificate/diploma at my own costs...

when its at my own costs, ive to find a job first..

Im like working for money.. which is much to uncle big's dismay. he said that ive no career purpose. zzz

2009-09-16T10:51:00.002+08:00

Hello blog... its been some time since i last update u..so im back..

I had some self-reflections just now.. i realised something about me.. I am actually quite apprehensive towards commitments.. I dont really like commitments. This does not mean that i am irresponsible. Most of you,readers, would have known for me years. You should know me almost inside out already. Lolx. Im not the kind who shirks responsibilities.

Noco joined my family just last sunday. Noco is a baby sun conure. She is roughly 2months++. Taking care of her is very similar to taking care of a toddler. She requires hand-feedings twice a day. You feed her with the baby bird formula. She is able to eat solid food now. Hopefully, she will slowly wean off her formula.. Ive been giving her lesser formula and more solid food.

By this wkend, i hope she is totally off feedings in the mornings... I wake up early in the morning just to feed her.. If i happen to get a job anytime soon, it will be a major challenge.. Currently it takes 45min to 60mins to feed her with formula.. the above Timing is inclusive of making formula, getting her ready, picking her up, put up with nonsense from her, etc.. I will have to wake up very early to get everything done.

Its like taking care of a baby lahx... Looking at this situation... i dont really wanna have kids next time... U see.. noco only needs twice a day feeding... I already find it a chore. Imagine having a newborn human who needs feedings every 2 hours throughout the day?

It will take another week or so for noco to fully get off from her formula.. So situation will get better..

Im quite relieved tat my parents are ok with noco.. Mama played with noco today.. Noco doesnt really bite now.. So disciplinary actions are very important... Noco is very sociable. =) And very very playful.. I hope she is gd with little children... Im sure travis and trishelle will love having noco around.. But first, i will nd to trim noco's nails... So sharp! My arms are covered with scratches. I look as tho i had been abused. =X

2009-09-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

Haha.. super bo liao... saw this morph thingy from bing's FB status... its rather interesting... so i decided to do one for myself..since im bored to tears.

this is how my kid will look like IF i ever have one with xiao zhu. hahaha.. my own curiosity and fantasy.. sooo cute hor? look like bb girl. hahaha.... but this bb does look like my niece somehow. =X oopxx...

heres the link to the actual web site.

http://www.morphthing.com/baby/1462397-Baby-of-20051215show6062-M-jpg-and-justme-JPG?key=dc6ae1056ea75bde04ce020999c6df04

2009-09-03T17:19:00.002+08:00

on 29th August 2009, qtss 2000 kakis celebrated Mdm Teoh's retirement dinner. Mdm Teoh was our chemistry teacher for sec 3 and 4. She was also the form teacher of class 4B. The dinner was held at Queen's Condo. Dinner was take away from Outback Steakhouse.

I had a fun filled evening at the event. It was really really nice to see my dear old teacher after 7-8 yrs. Lolx. She is still the same!! So charming. Motherly. She still has this warming smile. She greeted each and every one of us. We had dinner together on a long table. Watched the videos that edmund n wingkei did for her. Each of us recorded a statement for her..And i got to see our chicken dance that was filmed at holiday inn batam swimming pool. LOLX... we were all tickled pink.

Before all of us head home, we had this activity. Each of us were given a piece of paper. We penned our names on a corner. All of us gathered in a circle. We wrote the words that we want to say to the person beside us.. and the piece of paper got passed around the room for everyone to pen their thoughts.

after the dinner... some of us head to riduot tea garden.. uncle big joined me there..we all chatted till 1+am before we headed home.. i enjoyed my nite. =)

2009-08-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

hurhur.. met up with my pri-school fren last friday..after like 5 yrs? =X LOLX...

ok..ashamed to say... im only left with one pri-school fren.. its so sad huh?

then... only met up with her after 5 yrs.. very sad hor? =X

hahaha..

had a great catching up with her..

we all had kyo nichi for dinner.. quite an ok ramen outlet... price is reasonable... had a go at the arcade... caught a lime green scrumpie... we have ddrinks at cafe cartel afterwards..

saturday was well spent... went back to qian huw ith travis... bought 5 guppies.. one caught by travis... it broke its tail after an adventure in the fishing net courtesy of mr travis..

had dinner at IMM..becos meimei's anklet broke and my sis wanted to go to POH HENG...dinner was at a HK cafe at hte ground level.. my noodles are nice... the chicken wing sucks.. dont order it..shopped arnd IMM......

2009-08-22T12:17:00.002+08:00

Duhz Tots.

This is duh thoughts....

DumDum* has been complaining about his beloved gf for the longest time... nearly a year to be exact....He can describe his gf as the world's worst gf... He is unhappy about almost every single intolerable behaviour that he cringed about... He felt used.. taken advantage of... Been complaining that his beloved gf has been a big huge bratty princess who wants everything her way...

he felt unappreciated..... one moment he can tell me he is bent on a break up.. the nest moment... he is like head over heels again over her... he can whine to me about watever nonsensical things that she has done to him.. He whines about how his gf enjoyed other guy's company..... he complains about how popular his girl is with guys...

from the looks of the entire situation... i would classify him as a mental case.. he has dual personality.. one who loves his gf to bits..the other who hates his gf to bits..

he is suffering alot i would say........ i tot relationships help you grow for the better and not worse.... well... he becomes more and more depressed each day.... since day one of his relationship.. he told me that his gf would love to marry a rich guy.. oh come on! which girl doesnt want some rich handsome suave dude to scoop them off their feet? Becos of this... he is very uptight about getting a car...getting a house... when he lost his job.. he was a near manic case.... he worries about finding a job..he worries about his finances.. he worries his gf gets picked up by a more successful guy....

almost everytime i tok to him.. he is bent to get a break up......... sometimes i wonder if its worth holding on......

watever it is... i realised something

a person can say drastically horrible and unpleasant things about their other half to the point that it makes their other half sound as tho they are the biggest scumbags of the entire universe... but still run back to the side of their other half AFTER u have managed to dry tat person's tears and get that person up on their feet...

this person can cry as tho theres no longer a tomorrow in existence and on the verge of saying good bye to every single living being on this earth with absolutely no will to live on to the point that it makes u feel that this other half is nothing but the greatest bitch/bastard who shld do a favour for the entire world by dropping dead right now...... but this person will still run back to the side of their other half AFTER u spent hours lending a shoulder and fretting over what words to use or actions to make this person feel better....

the entire social world that person know of can tell tat person his gf is no longer worth it.. but still nothing changes...

Needless to say..... everything happens in a cycle.... after u get that person back up on their feet..they go back to that other half...gets hurt..comes back to you.. u get that person up on the feet AGain.. and they go back to the other half.. gets hurt..

u see.. its a cycle... and i would say.. somehow given up.... he chooses the way he wants to live.. i dont care anymore.. he has to learn the hard way.

2009-08-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

And i realised... i havent been bloggin..Dont worry.. im still a human... on earth.... still breathing..

my days are still pretty much the same... nothing much has changed...Tho im quite sian at times... well.. looking forward to my friday gathering and saturday's.. then nxt wk's gatherin!! so exciting

2009-08-04T13:38:00.003+08:00

or click this link

2009-08-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

Batam Trip - Words only

Shah organised a wkend getaway at holiday inn batam... and its a SMASH! hahaha.... total 6 of us joined in the fun! Shah, alaska, eve, me, vic and edmd lim..

Sat morning.

7.30am: breakfast at harbor front mac... bumped into ed at mac...sat down to wait for eve shah n alaska to arrive..chatted..took some pictures... i didnt eat much.. maybe too excited? lolx.. its been some time since i last went for a short trip...

8.30am: we all headed for toilet break..before entering the customs... waited like idiots for the gate of our ferry to open..

9am-10+am: finally boarded the ferry..was a jerky start... watched mr bean... took some pics... we reached batam waterfront city.. i realised something about indonesia... they are quite laid back..... there was a huge queue forming... 2 customs officers were on duty to chop the passports ..etc.... then one just left... end up... speed lowered... longer queue formed..

once we cleared the customs..we took a bus to our Holiday INn hotel... received a warm welcome for hte staff... overall ambience of the holiday is nice... they lighted some candles and used aromatherapy..

great kids pool! got slide..got giant mushroom... excited sia! we entered our two bedroom suite and were greeted by a dead xiao qiang on the floor nxt to the tv cabinet. -__-"""

cleanliness? duhx.

nvm.. we rested awhile..before we headed off for the Nagoya shopping mall at the other end of batam island... shah helped us book a cab... 6 of us.. so 2 cabs.. we all had A n W for lunch... OMGG.. missed the food .. lolxx.... then we all did some shopping before we returned tot he hotel room and prepare ourselves for WATERSPORTS!

the guys wanted to try cable ski.. so shah led us tot he cable ski area..unfortunately.. it was under repair....we got to see some pet monkeys at the cable ski area.. reminds me of someone..oh nvm about cable ski...

we went for the water package near Harris.... 50 singapore dollars for a jet ski ride, parachute and banana boat ride... uncle big didnt join us int he water activity.. he concentrated on photography...jet ski was really cool... its nice to feel the wind going against u... the gentle splashes of sea water on your face... its about 10 mins ride... it does get a little bumpy when u hit the rising waves.. overall. FUN!

parachuting was enjoyable.... the feeling of being in the mid-air above sea waters.... its amazingly quiet and calm when i reached the highest point in mid-air... i got to get close with a sea eagle..i think its a bailey sea eagle.. lolx. its only a few metres away from me........ soo relaxing to be up there....

the banana boat ride was really memorable... all of us were pretty hyped up.. all smiling away to the camera and totally anticipating the ride..unfortunately..shah just have to sit behind me.. and used me as a support for him to stay on board the banana boat.. serve him right for his first dramatic fall into the water.. =X it was just a gentle turn... our organiser just have to land into the water for no reason.

the first capsize was FUN! ahahahaha.. we were literally thrown off hte banana boat... uncle big managed to capture us falling into the water..lolx..swallowed sea water.. got water into my ears..... all of us were laughing all the way.. bth.. getting back onto the boat was rather difficult for me.. lolx.. i needed much help from everyone...

the 2nd capsize has taught me that shah can be super hero.. he flew across my head.. i can feel someone brushing pass my head.. lolx.... he injured alaska while crash landing intot he water... the hero wanted to stay on the banana boat longer.. -_-"" eve n ed had a minor collison with each other.. thank god..everyone was fine

after the watersports..we headed back to the hotel to nua at hte swimming pool.. i was looking forward to it..becos of the mushrooom and slide.... at first..none of them wanted to play with the slide.. The rest attempted the slide only after i went for a couple of rounds on the slide and some persuasion.. lolx.. i think they can see im having fun..so no harm trying.. end up..all of us got addicted ot the slide..u can never get enough of it..

we returned tot he hotel room and got greeted by cockroach number 2. zzzz... shah managed to shooo it away.....we all had a bath... and then dinner at a restaurant near the jetty...

we all headed back..watched movie form the tv channel....played uno...played with camera.. we all had some fun shots.. lolx.. iw ill upload hte pics in sequence once i get the pics..too many pics..will create a couple of slideshows..we had snacks..before all of us konked off one by one..

i couldnt slp...insomnia i guess? lolx...

sunday..its the day we all head back... it took us all some time to get up....get ready... we headed to batam centre for lunch at godiva bistro.. nice food.. gd coffee...shopping... eve headed back first.... the rest of us took a later boat back... shopped more...

we reached singapore about 6pm..wanted to catch a movie at vivo..but there wasnt any gd seatings..we tried TBP.. but failed as well.. end up..we all had a humble dinner at QI JI before we home sweet home..

2009-07-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

lolx...spotted a stalker... =X miss sng. =x ranked 2nd... gd job girl! =X

2009-07-30T21:17:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

Ive been living in a daze for a week now.... im back to senses.... accepted fact..time to move on... already applied a couple of jobs.. not tooo optimistic tho..

finding job .. is like finding a bf or gf.. it takes time..it takes fate..it takes patience... maomao is back already... my readership quite low.. how to make maomao famous lehx....... throw maomao into american idol?? throw maomao into Britain's got talent?

2009-07-18T10:54:00.002+08:00

Life comes with unexpected changes..

all the while.. i was hoping to hold on to this job and look for another at the same time.. but things took a turn since tuesday..

i was on mc... my new GM dropped by the office.. met up with my colleagues...Near the end of the day... he issued each of us a termination letter.. how sweet of him.... he was saying that he is terriblely sorry and this decision was a sudden one... saying that he will help us to "look" for jobs..etc...

i came back to the office on wednesday .. rather surprised to see the office being empty.. then my colleagues told me about the news... we were all given 24 hrs to clear out... new GM gave me a call..and repeated wat he said to my colleagues to me.... His words and tone sounded rather sarcastic to me...

A mad rush to cancel all orders.. a mad rush to cancel all accounts.. just when im done cutting hte power supply, internet and telephone lines.... the new GM called us and told us that he will extend our termination till end of the month.. so im technically still employed... with the office power supply and lines down..we are working from home..

i still return to the office..to pack up things into boxes... and next week we will send over to Malaysia...

And now... im jobless soon.... time to pia to look for jobs.. haix... im not rather upbeat about it.. ive been searching for jobs all this time.. and i wasnt that in a hurry to get one asap... i took my time.. and i am fully aware of the current market situation...

but now... ive to hurry to find another job..... how cruel life is..... i know many of u are telling me to be postitive.. oh well.. one moment i am... one moment im not.. aaa..... Well...its just another shit fuck up situation ive to go through...

probably i will learn to be stronger......

at least im able to cope with a sudden retrenchment news now... previously..i took it quite badly.. now im quite calm about it... its like... no big deal....

2009-07-13T14:16:00.002+08:00

Back to blog..

still recovering from my wisdom tooth extraction.. believe me..i think its one of the last few things u will ever want to do in ur life...

i decided to extract my wisdom tooth as it was growing against my 2nd last tooth in an awkward angle... Judging from the way that it is growing, it will never reach the surface... After a few infections, i guess its time to get it out... Its a better choice than letting it rot inside...

As long as the tooth is impacted (meaning growing against other tooth) , its better to get it removed. If its touching the other tooth, higher chances of getting food collected in between the gaps and higher chances of infection will occur...

The surgery went smoothly.. its not as painful as i expected.. thanks for proper use of anesthesia.. I was quite taken care of.. The most extreme pain comes in after the anesthesia wears off... Its a burning and hurting sensation..so painful..i cried... the painkillers didnt really work for me.. gosh..

then i tried to slp..but failed.... i just closed my eyes and pray the pain will just go away..when i woke up.. my cheek swelled up.... and i look as tho i had a pig head. sooo UGLY.. i cldnt eat... i vormitted that evening... mum n uncle big had to clean up after me.. sigh..

2nd day..i was still swelling in the left cheek.. so painful..cant eat.. if i force myself to eat..the pain comes with a headache...

3rd day was better.. i managed to eat .. but still it hurts after that.. still swelling.. now its the fourth day..still swelling.. but not as bad... i tried eating.. but failed... hahaha..still painful.. and throughout the whole period..im quite drowsy... gona nap soon..

and then another worry.... shld i work tml when im still on mc? HAIX.. im really worried i get sacked becos of too many mc..

2009-07-07T08:23:00.002+08:00

Weekend was good...

The typical wkend...hang out with uncle big and my family...

Managed to catch a few scrumps.. gona sell them.

bing helped me to catch my big head scrump..

we helped her to catch the medium scrump at marina sq..

sunday was quite fulfilling... lunch with travis n family...followed by a short shopping trip to suntec... then headed for china sq... bought my stitch.. its quite huggable... really nice item for cuddles... will take a picture of it soon...

i guess ive reached another junction in my life again...

ive tried n tried to get into moe n pathlight... and ive come to a point to realise that.. its no use... ive been applyin and applying... i just cant get in... i just have to accept the things the way it is now... sigh. ive exhausted my means... its not that i didnt try hard enough.. ive been applying and each time... i edited my resume n cover letter to make it better.. but still got rejected... haha..mainstream teaching for moe too.. omg.

well..yea... so what now?

volunteer? hahaha..rainbow ignored me ever since i rejected tat offer.. its expected.... i think my application to pathlight didnt go well.. maybe they block yahoo email?

my heart already sank to the deep bottom of the ocean...

was talking to alaska last nite...

we spoke about finding ourselves..

cool topic hor?

but how do i find myself..

where do i find myself...

hai

i just felt a sense of loss after everything came to a closure...

my mind just refuse to think of wat to do next...

yet my heart just wants to get out of here.....

uncle big said that ive faced with tat very same rejection a few times already..i cld get over it..

haix

im facing a denial point...

im desperate for solutions..

yet im too sian to think about it...

im unhappy inside..wanting to say things out..

yet... i just cant find words to say... and.. no one to say too.... everyone is sick of this topic by now.. argh..

wheres my panadol...

2009-07-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

im so bored in office again.. hoping that time will pass faster.. i just wanna go home..

the bus 36 been crappy.. it arrives late now..meaning.. i reach home late too.. imagine waiting 15-20 mins for one bus 36... when im home..its about 6.45 to 7pm already.. =(

im feeling crappy againx...

2nd time im repeating tat word...

to me.. my future is like a blank...

my short term goals are... 1. wisdom tooth extraction... will be done next wk..if everything is going smoothly... 2. go on a holiday... qtss khakis are planning for a short trip to bintan or batam or just some island.. most likely i will just tag along with them... shah is organising it... gd job shah.. heres ur dog biscuit. =X

but i really wish for a llooooonnnnggger trip.=( maybe one tat lasts like a wk or more

and with all these.. i need capital.. and where capital gona come from.. from my job.. gar..

job again..

haix

im getting used to tis job already
getting used to the daily depressed feeling of waking up..going to work in a job im sian of..
getting used to the sian feeling of being alone.. tho it creeps me
gettings used to the cold chilling air con in my office
gettings used to feeling ultra sian n depressed and crappy on mondays to wednesdays
getting used to hiding in the toilet to hide watever shitty crappy nonsensical emo feelings im having...
gettings used to talking to myself in the office
getting used to stoning at my desk and worrying about my future and wat i want to do
getting used to eating alone... yes..it sucks.. i hate it.. but yes... i rather eat alone sometimes... becos ive not much in common with my colleagues...
getting used to the sick morning irritating feeling that tells me that i shld just quit n go eat grass...
gettings used to losing my sleep
getting used to losing my hair
gettings used to the feeling of not wanting to eat becos im just too sian
getting used to my gastrics
getting used to complain about my job.. im cutting down on that.. haix..gimme some time
getting used to complain to myself that it was my stinky decision to stay in this job.. ive only myself to blame
getting used to surfing at job sites n screening newspaper..only to end up even more sick when i cant find any thing to apply
getting used to the fact that ive let go of the rainbow..to speak the truth..i do regret a little... becos its like something tat i wanted to do..but it just doesnt pay well..
getting used tot he fact that im a stinky materialistic bitch who rather trade her suffering for money.. crap.. if ive extra 500 bucks..i would have taken up general anesthesia.... sigh..crap... im materialistic piece of junk..

and guess wat

im getting used to my stinky fark tud life... crap

2009-06-28T10:25:00.003+08:00

I need sleep... ive been complaining for the longest time that ive some insomnia problem. -.-"

aND ive to say this..

i think bad things come in waves..... one after another..

just when im on the route to better sleep (with some pills)... i cant sleep again..

the next irritating thing is.....

look at the medication below...

And so... wats with those medications?

they are both anti-biotics..

prescribed by a dentist...

Its not gd news for me..

those medications are meant to bring down the infection and swelling in my gum..

my left wisdom tooth is infected... it hurts all day long...

the gd news is.... the infection will go away with the help of anti-biotics...

the bad news is.. the infection can come back again..

the worst news is.... its better to extract it.. its growing against my other tooth..and theres no way it will grow out....

and im not excited about it..

1. ive yet to get over my trauma from the previous dental wisdom extraction episode.

2. wisdom tooth extractions are not cheap to begin with...

Dear Kami Sama.. your lil girl here, miss karen, has only started working for 3 months..3rd pay check is yet to come..confirmed to be delayed due to change of mgmt in coy... She doesnt have much savings in the first place..... the cost of tis surgery is gona eat up watever she has earned n saved so far...

im allowed to use medisave to pay.. i doubt ive much medisave....

since friday..ive been sourcing for dentists..... huitian intro me one at telok blangah.. but its a little too far for me... my parents wanted to me to go some old chap at bukit merah central... but im too lazy to travel...i went to gentle dental clinic at river valley.. about 10mins walk from my home.. its the nearest... and uncle big been going to tis branch at marine terrace..

>.< aa..... and now.. wisdom tooth extraction comes with a few days of mc...crap.. ive only started work..and taking soo many days mc??? i took like a week to recover from the previous wisdom extraction.. gosh.. hai.. watever lahx.. very sian..theres no best time to do the extraction.. maybe tml the wisdom tooth will disappear...

i shall continue procastinating. =X

transformer tonite.. hiakhiakhiak

and yesh..maomao is back..

check out www.maomaolivesat.blogspot.com

shall update it wherever possible

2009-06-24T09:01:00.003+08:00

you brought this to yourself..

you choose to walk this path..

you had a choice.. but u made this choice..

you know you dont like this path

yet you still take it

u made this choice..

u only have urself to blame...

no matter how much u suffer... serve you right

no matter how sian u are.....3 words..serve you right...

who told you to take this path one?

no one..

you chose yourself..

u have other options.. but u just dont like it...

u have an option to quit.. but u are too fearful of what the future will bring to you...

you are too fearful to walk back a path u took before..

u fear this .. u fear that...

u might as well just live this scary world and go somewhere else....

u wanted financial stability..so you chose this

u wanted to support ur family..so you chose this..

u wanted some financial independence so you chose this..

then.. why u still so sick of it..

you chose it,didnt u?

if one day u lose everything u have now....3 words...serve you right.

2009-06-23T20:57:00.002+08:00

Mum's bday

2009-06-21T17:14:00.004+08:00

In short:

friday went to videos live gaming concert with bing, huda, jaq and wei xiong.. had late nite supper with uncle big, bing, huda jaq and wei xiong

sat went to see contract.. then serangoon..then marina sq

sunday celebrated my mum's bday
i shall upload more pics and blog about the events when im done collecting the photots..

On the happier note... looook wat we have caught!! hahahaha...... Marina sq Prize stage has expanded... they got new machines..now a two hook plushie UFO catcher...

managed to get scrump at 12 bucks.. and the stitch at 6 bucks... not bad for a first try..

and now...uncle big has his blog... www.thedevilcup.blogspot.com

2009-06-18T14:09:00.002+08:00

It has been a busy week for me...... sunday..father's day celebration.. then met up with ly,hanjie n meng for dinner just to catch up.. tuesday went out with mum n uncle big... and soo on.... hvent got hte time to upload the father day pics.. not alot too..

so... cant be btohered... finally after soooo sooo many months..... i get to sleep.. went to get sleeping pills from a doctor.. tho i still wake up in the middle of the nitee... the drowsiness slowly put me back to slp... i woke up feeling ok... not grouchy n frustrated..

u see..each time u get an insomnia.. u get worried of feeling tired the nxt day.. then u worry if u can sleep again the nxt nite.. argh.. it works as a cycle...

once again.. im sitting alone in my cold cold office.....

i really hate the loneliness... i wished for someone to tok to.. i can only tok to pple on msn.. but its not all the time htey are free..

yea.. ive colleagues... but i dont really click with them... to the point.. i felt i shld just eat alone too...

i don tknow wat lies ahead of me.. hai

to tis point of time.. i dont know wat i want to do in my life... yesh.. i wanted education..

cldnt get to NIE.. cldnt get to Pathlight.. cldnt get thru the allied educator...

i got a chance at rainbow.. but hte tot of cleaning up.. u know.. poopoo etc... it turned me off... and the pay was tooo low.... if its a far location... at least gimme slightly higher pay.. for i be on the roads for like 3-4 hrs a day.....

then now ive a chance to work in a childcare.. and guess wat.. im having 2nd thoughts... childcare is like a mother's job.. u are doing a mother's job for others.. u bath the kid.. u feed the kid...u clean the pee poo n puke.. and again.. the tot of pee poo puke turned me off yet again....

on one hand im desperately trying to get out of here

on the toher hand.. ive doubts over myself and the nxt offer presented in front me... then u will ask me..WHY DID U APPLY TAT CHILDCARE THEN!

argh.. i just wanted to open another option for myself.. then it becomes another headache......

THEN NOW WHAT YOU WANT?

argh.....

u see..many of u may envy me....... but i just find my current job tottallllly not me... work is manageable... pay is gf.... but i just cant take hte loneliness.. i nd someone to tok to..

at least sometimes hanjie or chee meng or alaska will give me a call to chat up.. but haix

im totally frustrated with myself.....

hai.. im looking forward to having dinner with my bf.. and tomorrow's outing iwth bing jaw huda n wei xiong...

2009-06-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

One word : LOST

2009-06-11T08:30:00.003+08:00

Its another day in the office... colleagues not around..so im here...

Ive been "Dragging" myself to work since like day1?? ive been here for almost 3 months already...

im stressed out.. ive to say it....

ive to find a new job asap... i just feel insecure here... haix.

after rejecting rainbow... another news came to me....my boss was transferred out of sudden.. new boss taking over...tis unit hasnt been performing well..fate unknown..

in the first plce..ive no attachments here.. i just need $ for survival.. now im more pressured to find a job for security sake...

i forsee how mundane days ahead....

2009-06-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

I challenge Garnier Light Roll On.. Lolx.. alrites..i shall be the guinea pig of tis product by Garnier.. Its suppose to lighten up your dark eye rings.. haha.. Now lets see if it REALLy works.. hahahaha...

heres the product.. and below is a picture of my eyes at day one... Please note that no make up is being worn and i did not edit the photo

lets see the effect after a week of using the roll on... lolx..

My plant blossomed! hahahahah.... i bought a dull looking plant for my living room from GWC cold storage.. after a week of tender loving care... it bloomed a flower today!!! hahaha..so happy!! heres my flower.. lolx..i wonder how long it will last...

2009-06-06T13:30:00.002+08:00

Hahahahahah.....I still find xiao zhu amusing.. lolx... But of course..things wont be sooo fantastic without xiao gui. lolx.. im still a big fan of them... even tho i seldom watch the full episodes of yu le bai or 100% entertainment.. their short clips are gd enough to make me luff...

they really bring alot of laughters to many... and the best part is.. they dont mind spoiling their images a little by acting super lame or stupid.. this is wat i admire of them.. I still remember the Kiakia, Bo Lai Kia and Kia Si Mei.. lolx... really cute.. then now.. xiao zhu n xiao gu act as "kids" in certain episodes.. haha.. u can view them here

link: http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=ADDB9957FE1C1E05

i did something drastic...

u all know how much i wanted to be an educator.. ive the chance.. and yet.. im like letting go of it...

im given the chance to teach at rainbow centre yishun.. which is like 1hr+ to 2 hrs travelling time...

and the irony is.. i just cant accept the pay... its low in my own opinion... haix.. i actually dont mind travelling as long as the pay is reasonable...... i tried to nego for higher pay.. maybe 1.8?? nope.. failed.. Failed just becos my UOL degree is not recognised..

KNN again.... wats wrong with my degree? i took the same blardy exams like any one else at that uni.. argh... forget it.. they are pro-moe... really forget it.....

haix.. its agonising... tho uncle big said pay n money are not everything... but to me.. it will be...... the amount im getting is just enough to survive after giving parents allowances n daily expenses... ive not put into considerations of the birthday months, watever celebrations (mother day father day) and other occassions thats gona cost $$$.

What happens if my desktop breaks down? What happens if i need a hp? all these need $$ u know... haix... then wat about $ to be spent on daily necessities like facial foam or pads or make up? i dont use SK 2 or Bio therm.. im using those normal ones like biore or ZA... haix.......

ive been through my jobless months worrying about money at almost every day..n i dont really wish to go back to those days...with tat amount.. i sure be worried about money yet again when reality sets in.. haix...

sure enough..its a half day work week.. but im not allowed to work part time... if get caught i MATI. argh....

yesh... u can say im materialistic or watever shit... to be exact.. i dont find myself splurging like no one's business.. on LVs or handphones or spa or facial.. haix... everything in singapore is one word.. "money". Reality bites me... im like forgo-ing wat i wanted for the word "Money"...

sure enough..being bonded means im job secured for 3 yrs with them.. but to be exact..its 4 yrs.. becos i will only start formal training next oct in 2010.

its like 4 yrs later to switch to another "higher" paying job... ive plans to go for tours.. ive plans to get a house.. ive plans for tis n that... they all will have to go.. if i take tis job... argh. haix

and wats the decision.....

watever it is.. im still applying for the jobs that i want....

2009-05-31T20:31:00.003+08:00

Frustrating isnt it?

The weekend is always over in a blink of an eye and the weekdays are always soo torturing to get by...

hai...its gona be 9pm already....gah~~

my precious wkend is soon over...and what next is another long 5 day work week ahead...

sian to the max...

then to add on.... uncle big is still in the reservist... sigh......... he will head for the jungles ..and probably anoother few more days without any contact with him.. =/

HUuuuuuuuuu... Hrrrmpph.. haix............ one word.. SIAN.

yeaps.. im whining again....

and i dont really care.. i just wanna whine.. im like a kid now.....

alaska most likely on her way to cambodia already... she is off for some backpacking before she gets "locked" up by work...... totally supportive of her decision for a trip...... everyone needs a short break in life...... and alaska..if u are reading this... pls take gd care of urself..and keep in contact... maybe drop me an email or something la... else i start to worry whether u still on earth or gone outer space to see the moon..

u see...ever since u enter work life.. its like .. u end up looking forward to just ur pay day n the wkends...

if u can find some zest n motivation in ur work.. then probably ur work days are easier to get by...

i find myself stepping into the office..feeling sian... looking forward to lunch.. after lunch.. i look forward to the knock off time.... gah~ .. i feel sooooo ROBOTIC.....

omg.

very soon just call me karen the robotic.. no longer karen ah yi .. haha

ok lahxx. but still..being employed is better than being un-employed........

2009-05-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

Sickness drama...

I always tot that by visiting a doc and getting medicine will make u feel better...

But no... its not the case for me..

last wed.. i was on mc... cos of my sore throat and giddiness.... No anti-biotics..well..ya..recovered fast... thrsday n friday went to work... come saturday nite.. my throat suddenly hurt like mad.....

sunday went to the doc... ok..throat has some bleeding here n there.. OMG.. he still can say that he shld have given me anti-biotics... so im like.. DUHX.. ok.. nvrmind...

took the med... monday went to work.. by 11am.. i lost my voice... the leaky nose sets in.. i start to cough... i havent been slping since friday nite.. =______= during knock off itme..i felt im having fever.. cos im super drained..head giddy and the heat around my throat + body.. suckx

went to see doc ytrday nite..... he just gave me runny nose n cough med.... had high fever last nite.. he gave me mc for today.. seriously..its DRAMA.. wtf.... i wasted so much money on tis sickness!! kaos.... if u gave me the anti-biotics.. i wld be fine... argh... knn.

2009-05-24T15:18:00.003+08:00

Ta dah!!! We visited the arcade at plaza sing.. and we got mickey at 9 bucks... bing only got it at 3 bucks. omg.... skill drop skill drop...

ok..apart from mickey.. more drama..

WTF! my sore throat came back.. and worst still.. my throat is bleeding... *sobs* I was fine from thursday till saturday evening.... it started to hurt late at nite.... argh..didnt slp well last nite lor... and its a saturday nite! can u believe it? its my "last" nite before i start another !@# 5 day work week lors....

oh well... and i went to the doctor earlier tis morning..

How i spent my saturday?

went arcade lor.. haha.. not only that lahx...

Uncle big under reservist now.. so i lum nua the entire saturday...... did all the necessary housework int he morning.. cleaned my bird cage..... afternoon i watched some drama and anime.... and SIAN... my fate/stay nite anime got removed.... Alamak.. i watch halfway nia lehx...

its irritating u know~ Ang Kong kia...... Dont know which blur kar Gong gong ang kong kia removed the animes... i was happily watching.. the anime finally grasped my attention.. and u just have to do tis....

=/

aa.. i dont do illegal dwlding... lolx..... oh well.. nvm lahx..... watch other thing lor.... one word for this...SWAY.

My sis left travis to our care....... we had dinner at kenny roger at gwc..uncle big joined us at gwc.... then we took a walk around gwc.... sis passed me trishelle.. hehe..she so cute...... she was slping all the time..until we stepped into mother works... she opened her eyes when we are in the toy section.. and she gave us this super cute sunshine smile..... =_____=

we showed her a toy..she was happy with it.. and yeaps.... uncle big bought it for her.....reunited with my sis n family....then we parted...after gwc....me n uncle big went to plaza sing to nua stone.. then the arcade.....

hai..weather so hot again.. and my throat.. haix.... hurts..

im like complaining and complaining hor? X=

ai.. i dont care lahx..... mooody moody mahx.. wat to do..

aa... once again.. i got no acknowledgement email from the pathlight.. zzz... its the 3rd time try and no acknowledgement email.. sigh....... sway lor.. wat to do...... previously also same case... hope my snail mail reaches them.....

2009-05-23T13:25:00.002+08:00

Full of thoughts..

Last blog post was tuesday... now its a saturday.. my long awaited wkend.... nxt wk is another 5 day work week...

I must say.. dramas really can input some dreamy n fantasy into a girl's heart...

Im currently watching boys before flowers.. well..u already know lahx...

i looked at the character Ji Hoo (Hua Zhe lei or Rui from hana yori dango).. He is all along a dream guy to me.... its like.. even in real life.. i wished very much to have someone like him... this is perhaps the reason why i kept liking the same character over n over again...

one who is always watching behind you..

one who is always looking after....seeking whats the best for you..

one who never hesitates to come to u when u are in need of help..

one who accompanies u when u are down or lonely..

one who gives u the shoulder to cry one..

one who gives u the endless and unconditional love even tho ..deep down.. he knows he is not hte one for u...

Its quite obvious he is into her...

but her heart dont belong to him.. its so sad...

my heart breaks for him... if he really cant find love.. i will give him some. *imagines uncle big cui.. becos karen ah yi always fantasize various guys..from xiao zhu to xiao gui to takeshi kaneshiro to byakuya*

Aiya.... all anime guys or some celebrity... as tho they gona jump right into our lives and steal me away from uncle big, right?

haha..scally tat really happen.... =X

Dear Kami-sama..

onegai... bring someone with a mixture of xiao zhu, xiao gui and ji ho to me.. arigato gozaimas...

ok back to topic...

ive frens who walked the same path as ji ho... sigh.. please wake up.... else u drop further into sorrow.. please pick urself up....

the recent xiao zhu scandal been buzzing arnd..

i know u might have some bad impression of him..

but i seriously dont really care what he really did...

its the media yea.. they can make a little pin hole look as tho the apocalypse is coming.. oh well... whatever happens..

xiao zhu still has my support....

and once again.. i put myself for a potential heartbreak if i get a reject from any of them..

2009-05-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

Recently.. im soo tired...i slpt almost hte entire sunday.. yet i left soo tired ytrday.. its like..drowsy and feeling weak...

once awhile, my throat hurts...

today.. i feel the same... i know ive been complaining of my health... i know i shld take mc or something.. but i just dont know wat to say tot he doc... that im really tired? hai.. maybe its the cold cold cold air con at work? hmm. hai...

i shall take some panadol and hopefully feel better...... seeing a doctor means $$ flying away... not tat im poor... i just feel money can be better spent....

i dont understand my mood..... ive been very sian... argh...

wats this man..

hai...... maybe i shld go for hypnotherapy?